The Worth of Everything (Chapter6/??)
Title: The Worth of Everything
Chapters: 6/??
Author: mypaperdoll1611
Genre: Drama, Comedy, Slice of Life
Warnings: Twisted plot
Ratings: PG-13
Pairings/Characters: AoixUruha, RukixUruha, RukixReita, and more^^
Summary: Uruha’s life revolves around Ruki until he met Aoi. Will Uruha let Aoi free him from this continuing lies? Or envelope himself to the world that Ruki created for him?
Disclaimer: I don’t own them… not YET.
Comments: This is my first. Please take it easy on me.
“Hey, Uruha, won’t you talk to me already?” Aoi kept following Uruha.
“But you still didn’t even apologize for what you did!”
“Eh? I didn’t do anything wrong. Since when loving you became a crime?
“Stop saying embarrassing things like that!” Uruha opened the door to his room. “If you don’t even regret what you did, then just leave me alone!”
“But I just…” Uruha closed the door with a loud bang.
Aoi is hopeless. We’ve been arguing about his actions since yesterday. He’s really cheeky and kept doing weird things to me. He’s becoming different from the Aoi that I knew. The Aoi that’s mature, reliable, and distant is so far from what he is now. It’s not really a bad thing but I just don’t know how to deal with the childish and sweet Aoi. We’re both guys so doing this kind of things is abnormal isn’t it?
Today the breeze is blowing so smoothly. I just love how it feels into my skin. Should I walk beside the sea today? Thinking these things I opened the door at my terrace only to see the more idiotic Aoi. There’s an I LOVE YOU thing in the sand. Every passerby kept laughing, I immediately run downstairs to stop Aoi from doing more humiliating things. When I came down, people started making weird sounds.
“Awww~”
“Are they a couple? The guy is so sweet!” a girl said.
“No, it’s not like what you think!” I told everyone.
“Yeah, we’re not officially dating. Uruha thinks our relationship is abnormal,” Aoi said and held Uruha on his waist.
Uruha pushed Aoi, “It’s abnormal! Two guys dating each other…”
“Eeeehhhhh?” Uruha was surprised by the people’s reactions.
“Two guys he said?”
“Is the blonde one a guy?”
“I thought he’s a girl! So pretty!”
“A gay couple? Cool!!!”
“Look what you have done Aoi!” Uruha walked away, he’s blushing.
Aoi followed. “They wouldn’t know if you didn’t tell them…”
“Ganbatte raven guy! Go get the blonde one!”
“Look, they’re even cheering for us. We’re in the new century Uruha. Gay couples are now accepted.”
“No, they’re not! We’re still in Japan, you know!”
“Hmmm… We should go to Hawaii.” Aoi grabbed Uruha’s arms to stop him from walking away.
“It’s still the same there!”
“Hmmm… in Europe?”
“Mou, Aoi, if you have a lot of money to waste, then why don’t you buy a brain in Shibuya?”
“Are they selling it there? Hmmm… I wish they’re selling your heart too.”
“Since when did you become like this Aoi? You’re…” Aoi kissed him.
“Eighty-eight!” Aoi smiled.
“What the heck is your problem?” he pushed Aoi, he seemed like he was going to cry. “I can’t understand you anymore!” he turned back to wipe his tears.
“Uruha…” Aoi embraced him from behind. “Gomen, hontou ni gomenasai! I can’t even understand myself anymore. The more days I spend with you, the more I want to do weird stuffs to you and honestly… it’s more than just kissing.”
Uruha couldn’t reply.
“Nee… Uruha… Is there no possible way for you to accept me?”
How is it not possible to accept you Aoi? You’ve been so special to me ever since I met you, ever since you saved me. I have strong feelings for you but to suddenly define it as love… It’s not that easy. The stain of my past kept hurting me too every now and then. I still sob before I sleep. I still can’t erase that from my memory. How could I make you happy if I’m like this? I wish I was born as a girl so I’ll be confident to love you, maybe I’ll be able to return your feelings that way.
“It’s not like that…”
“No matter what you say… I’ll wait for you.” Aoi’s hands moved lower.
“Hey, where do you think you’re touching? You just said you’ll wait!”
“I’ll wait for your feelings of course! But it doesn’t mean for your body too!”
“Hey, isn’t it the other way around?”
“Oh is that so? Who cares?” Aoi continued his perverted acts.
“Mou… doing this in a place like this… it’s even so cold out here! Hey, stop ignoring other’s complains! What should I do… Oh! Aoi, you promised to teach me to play the guitar, right? Teach me right now!”
“Huh? This very moment? I didn’t expect you’re quite perverted too Uruha.”
“What the hell are you thinking Aoi?”
Aoi laughed, “No, nothing, fine, let’s go back to the hotel.”
He surprisingly taught me seriously. This side of Aoi is the side that I love the most especially when he holds the guitar on his arms. He plays it like he’s sucking my soul. The music that he’s playing became my pathway to the truth that I’ve never knew. It brought back some memories of my mother. The way she looks, she’s really thin that time. She’s full of bruises. I often take care of her when she’s sick. The doctor said she had leukemia. Why did she leave me? I always ask myself about this.
“Nee, Aoi, what’s leukemia? Is it curable?”
“Hmmm… I think it’s a blood sickness. I heard 90% of people that catches this don’t survive. Why? You really have a talent on playing the guitar, Uruha. Now place your middle finger at this string… then… What’s the problem Uruha?”
“I think my mother has leukemia.”
Aoi briefly became silent. “Why didn’t you ask Ruki’s help in finding your mother? Anything is possible with the Matsumotos.”
“I can’t because… I’m scared of his father.”
Aoi took the guitar from Uruha and put it aside. “Do you know why I call this place a paradise?”
Aoi then brought me in the most beautiful place I’ve ever seen. There seemed a glittering blue and green surrounding us. We walked further and saw a lake full of swans. It was really a paradise here but the thing that captured my attention the most was the pinwheels hanging on every tree. If I could count them, there was like a hundred of them smiling at you. Did Aoi made it all? When I faced him, he was holding one.
“My mother died a long time ago. I was a little kid back then. Since she died, I always made a pinwheel everyday. Someone told me that if you put your wish on it and let the air blow it, your wish will definitely come true. But today, I’m wishing for a different one. This pinwheel is for your happiness.”
“Aoi…”
“Let’s find your mother…”
“Aoi, I don’t deserve this. I’m not worthy of your kindness…”
“Shhh…” Aoi placed a finger on Uruha’s lips. “If it’s about that incident, I think you’re the only one punishing yourself. Just forgive yourself Uruha; it’s not even your fault. If it’s about your feelings, you don’t need to love me. I just have to love you more to be enough for the both of us.” Aoi chuckled. “But if it’s about being both guys and abnormal, I don’t think I can do anything about it.”
Uruha laughed, “Why do you always put weird comments in the end? I understand but STILL! I think it’s abnormal. It’s not easy for other people to accept us but I think I’m now confident enough to love you, Aoi.”
“Who care about other’s people comment? My world revolves around you Uruha.”
“Oi, is your world a little bit small?”
“You now know how to teased people, huh? This night you’re not getting away with it. I’ll show you how big is my world (*Aoi got the wrong idea XD).”
“Is that mean…”
“You’re still not ready?”
“No, if it’s Aoi, I think it would be alright.”
“What’s with the I THINK thing in the end?”
Aoi was excited to return to the hotel. Uruha finally accepted their relationship. He often dreamt of doing perverted stuff to Uruha for so long. Uruha, on the other hand, didn’t know what to feel. He’s scared but he finally became happy more than he thought he could be. They finally arrived at the hotel; they were surprised by the people who welcomed them.
“Tadaima newlyweds!” Reita said.
Ruki was shocked to see Uruha with Aoi. He did expect something like this but he did not expect that kind of pain that struck within his heart. He couldn’t speak. He just stared at Uruha who was at the same time staring at him. Uruha tried to take his hands away from Aoi but the other gripped it tightly.
“Konbanwa Reita, Kai… Ruki,” Aoi was obviously not pleased to see them. “What brought you here?”
“Is that how you greet your customers? We’re having a vacation here. You see this small guy was so depressed about a certain someone and almost killed himself for being so heartbroken.”
“Ah I see. It’s a shame that he didn’t succeed,” Aoi pulled Uruha. “It’s too late, we’re going to sleep. Enjoy your stay here.”
Ruki grasped Uruha’s other arm, “Let’s talk.”
“Don’t touch him!”
Kai tried to cool the atmosphere. “Calm down both of you, why don’t we drink a beer and have a little chat. It’s been a while since we’ve seen each other. You could join too Uruha.”
“I want to talk to you Uruha… alone!”
“Oi, Ruki…” Kai stopped Ruki.
“Let’s go, Uruha.” Aoi neglected Ruki.
“Aoi, I… I… want to know the truth. Please let me talk to Ruki, Aoi. I…”
Aoi just stared at Uruha. “I understand. Kai let’s have a beer out there… you too Reita. Just call me if this midget does something to you, I’ll definitely kill him.”
Aoi walked away at a certain distance but he could still see Ruki and Uruha. He trust Uruha but he couldn’t trust Ruki anymore. He’s too afraid that everything he worked hard on will just be destroyed. He didn’t want Uruha to be sad anymore. He didn’t want to hear Uruha’s cry every night. He didn’t want Uruha to be involved with Ruki anymore.
“To everything that comes to you… I get jealous Uruha.” Ruki said.
“Ruki… I and Aoi…”
“Finally dating? Is that means I don’t have any chance for you?”
“Ruki… I didn’t realize what you actually felt for me until…”
“Yeah, there are so many things that you did not know.”
“What do you mean?”
“Let’s just summarize it into three. I hope Uruha will stay and keep quiet until I finish, okay? The first one, your mother is already dead. She died of leukemia. Your mother is working at our company because your father had a large debt to us. Before she died, she sold you to us but I think she just wanted someone to watch over her son.”
Uruha was shocked but kept quiet as Ruki pleased.
“Second, do you remember the birthday present that I told you… the one that was worth a lifetime? It was you Uruha. That’s why I always thought you’ll be mine. It was my fault that you didn’t have any friends. I often do something horrible to anyone that tries to become closer to you.”
Uruha fell on his knees. He didn’t want to hear anymore of Ruki’s confessions. Aoi was alarmed to see the look of Uruha. He tried to run to where he was but Kai stopped him. He said that Uruha deserved to hear everything that Ruki have to say. Aoi looked at Reita. He seemed to be worrying about Ruki too.
“Third…” Ruki was shaking. “I… I…” tears fell. “I was the one who did those things to you, Uruha. I’m really sorry! I was supposed to save you from that perverts but when you called Aoi’s name… I lost my control. I… even you… I hurt even you!”
“Then the fourth confession?” another guy interrupted their conversation. “Ruki had been a bad guy, isn’t he?”
“I don’t want to hear anything anymore!” Uruha shouted. Aoi couldn’t surpress his worries anymore. He quickly ran to Uruha, supporting him to stand.
The man clapped his hands. “The final character had entered!”
“Byou! What are you dong here in Japan?” Aoi asked.
“I just wanted to support my brother. He’d been telling things that won’t help. So Uruha, let me tell you the fourth truth. I think Ruki wouldn’t tell you about this.”
“Byou-nii-san, stop this! I wanted to win Uruha back but telling him that… You just wanted to make everything worse!”
“Ruki, you already knew it right? That I just existed to make everything worse for you.” Byou looked at Aoi. “Long time no see… Ah, sumimasen but you better prepare yourself. I have something to say that might not be good to your ears.”
“Shut the crap Byou! Just tell it!”
“Oi oi, take it easy man! You heard him Ruki-chan, Aoi-kun insisted about me telling him the truth. It goes on like this. Mr. Shiroyama and Mrs. Takashima had an affair. It’s been a long time right Ruki? Hmmm…. I think Mrs. Takashima was pregnant when they separated.
“Byou!” Ruki pushed his older brother.
“What are you telling?” Aoi was about to hit Byou when Kazuki came and stopped him.
“You can’t hurt our vocalist like that. The fans will notice his bruise.”
“Is that mean… Aoi is…”
Byou smirked evilly. “Right Uruha, he’s your BROTHER.”
A/N: Yeah, ScReW finally entered! Sorry for doing this right after Aoi and Uruha were lovey-dovey. You see, Aoi and Uruha will become together and Ruki won’t have any chance right? If that happens, it would be the end of story but I don’t want to end it like that. I’m really sorry for this. Uruha loves Aoi just hold on to that fact^^
Chapters: 6/??
Author: mypaperdoll1611
Genre: Drama, Comedy, Slice of Life
Warnings: Twisted plot
Ratings: PG-13
Pairings/Characters: AoixUruha, RukixUruha, RukixReita, and more^^
Summary: Uruha’s life revolves around Ruki until he met Aoi. Will Uruha let Aoi free him from this continuing lies? Or envelope himself to the world that Ruki created for him?
Disclaimer: I don’t own them… not YET.
Comments: This is my first. Please take it easy on me.
“Hey, Uruha, won’t you talk to me already?” Aoi kept following Uruha.
“But you still didn’t even apologize for what you did!”
“Eh? I didn’t do anything wrong. Since when loving you became a crime?
“Stop saying embarrassing things like that!” Uruha opened the door to his room. “If you don’t even regret what you did, then just leave me alone!”
“But I just…” Uruha closed the door with a loud bang.
Aoi is hopeless. We’ve been arguing about his actions since yesterday. He’s really cheeky and kept doing weird things to me. He’s becoming different from the Aoi that I knew. The Aoi that’s mature, reliable, and distant is so far from what he is now. It’s not really a bad thing but I just don’t know how to deal with the childish and sweet Aoi. We’re both guys so doing this kind of things is abnormal isn’t it?
Today the breeze is blowing so smoothly. I just love how it feels into my skin. Should I walk beside the sea today? Thinking these things I opened the door at my terrace only to see the more idiotic Aoi. There’s an I LOVE YOU thing in the sand. Every passerby kept laughing, I immediately run downstairs to stop Aoi from doing more humiliating things. When I came down, people started making weird sounds.
“Awww~”
“Are they a couple? The guy is so sweet!” a girl said.
“No, it’s not like what you think!” I told everyone.
“Yeah, we’re not officially dating. Uruha thinks our relationship is abnormal,” Aoi said and held Uruha on his waist.
Uruha pushed Aoi, “It’s abnormal! Two guys dating each other…”
“Eeeehhhhh?” Uruha was surprised by the people’s reactions.
“Two guys he said?”
“Is the blonde one a guy?”
“I thought he’s a girl! So pretty!”
“A gay couple? Cool!!!”
“Look what you have done Aoi!” Uruha walked away, he’s blushing.
Aoi followed. “They wouldn’t know if you didn’t tell them…”
“Ganbatte raven guy! Go get the blonde one!”
“Look, they’re even cheering for us. We’re in the new century Uruha. Gay couples are now accepted.”
“No, they’re not! We’re still in Japan, you know!”
“Hmmm… We should go to Hawaii.” Aoi grabbed Uruha’s arms to stop him from walking away.
“It’s still the same there!”
“Hmmm… in Europe?”
“Mou, Aoi, if you have a lot of money to waste, then why don’t you buy a brain in Shibuya?”
“Are they selling it there? Hmmm… I wish they’re selling your heart too.”
“Since when did you become like this Aoi? You’re…” Aoi kissed him.
“Eighty-eight!” Aoi smiled.
“What the heck is your problem?” he pushed Aoi, he seemed like he was going to cry. “I can’t understand you anymore!” he turned back to wipe his tears.
“Uruha…” Aoi embraced him from behind. “Gomen, hontou ni gomenasai! I can’t even understand myself anymore. The more days I spend with you, the more I want to do weird stuffs to you and honestly… it’s more than just kissing.”
Uruha couldn’t reply.
“Nee… Uruha… Is there no possible way for you to accept me?”
How is it not possible to accept you Aoi? You’ve been so special to me ever since I met you, ever since you saved me. I have strong feelings for you but to suddenly define it as love… It’s not that easy. The stain of my past kept hurting me too every now and then. I still sob before I sleep. I still can’t erase that from my memory. How could I make you happy if I’m like this? I wish I was born as a girl so I’ll be confident to love you, maybe I’ll be able to return your feelings that way.
“It’s not like that…”
“No matter what you say… I’ll wait for you.” Aoi’s hands moved lower.
“Hey, where do you think you’re touching? You just said you’ll wait!”
“I’ll wait for your feelings of course! But it doesn’t mean for your body too!”
“Hey, isn’t it the other way around?”
“Oh is that so? Who cares?” Aoi continued his perverted acts.
“Mou… doing this in a place like this… it’s even so cold out here! Hey, stop ignoring other’s complains! What should I do… Oh! Aoi, you promised to teach me to play the guitar, right? Teach me right now!”
“Huh? This very moment? I didn’t expect you’re quite perverted too Uruha.”
“What the hell are you thinking Aoi?”
Aoi laughed, “No, nothing, fine, let’s go back to the hotel.”
He surprisingly taught me seriously. This side of Aoi is the side that I love the most especially when he holds the guitar on his arms. He plays it like he’s sucking my soul. The music that he’s playing became my pathway to the truth that I’ve never knew. It brought back some memories of my mother. The way she looks, she’s really thin that time. She’s full of bruises. I often take care of her when she’s sick. The doctor said she had leukemia. Why did she leave me? I always ask myself about this.
“Nee, Aoi, what’s leukemia? Is it curable?”
“Hmmm… I think it’s a blood sickness. I heard 90% of people that catches this don’t survive. Why? You really have a talent on playing the guitar, Uruha. Now place your middle finger at this string… then… What’s the problem Uruha?”
“I think my mother has leukemia.”
Aoi briefly became silent. “Why didn’t you ask Ruki’s help in finding your mother? Anything is possible with the Matsumotos.”
“I can’t because… I’m scared of his father.”
Aoi took the guitar from Uruha and put it aside. “Do you know why I call this place a paradise?”
Aoi then brought me in the most beautiful place I’ve ever seen. There seemed a glittering blue and green surrounding us. We walked further and saw a lake full of swans. It was really a paradise here but the thing that captured my attention the most was the pinwheels hanging on every tree. If I could count them, there was like a hundred of them smiling at you. Did Aoi made it all? When I faced him, he was holding one.
“My mother died a long time ago. I was a little kid back then. Since she died, I always made a pinwheel everyday. Someone told me that if you put your wish on it and let the air blow it, your wish will definitely come true. But today, I’m wishing for a different one. This pinwheel is for your happiness.”
“Aoi…”
“Let’s find your mother…”
“Aoi, I don’t deserve this. I’m not worthy of your kindness…”
“Shhh…” Aoi placed a finger on Uruha’s lips. “If it’s about that incident, I think you’re the only one punishing yourself. Just forgive yourself Uruha; it’s not even your fault. If it’s about your feelings, you don’t need to love me. I just have to love you more to be enough for the both of us.” Aoi chuckled. “But if it’s about being both guys and abnormal, I don’t think I can do anything about it.”
Uruha laughed, “Why do you always put weird comments in the end? I understand but STILL! I think it’s abnormal. It’s not easy for other people to accept us but I think I’m now confident enough to love you, Aoi.”
“Who care about other’s people comment? My world revolves around you Uruha.”
“Oi, is your world a little bit small?”
“You now know how to teased people, huh? This night you’re not getting away with it. I’ll show you how big is my world (*Aoi got the wrong idea XD).”
“Is that mean…”
“You’re still not ready?”
“No, if it’s Aoi, I think it would be alright.”
“What’s with the I THINK thing in the end?”
Aoi was excited to return to the hotel. Uruha finally accepted their relationship. He often dreamt of doing perverted stuff to Uruha for so long. Uruha, on the other hand, didn’t know what to feel. He’s scared but he finally became happy more than he thought he could be. They finally arrived at the hotel; they were surprised by the people who welcomed them.
“Tadaima newlyweds!” Reita said.
Ruki was shocked to see Uruha with Aoi. He did expect something like this but he did not expect that kind of pain that struck within his heart. He couldn’t speak. He just stared at Uruha who was at the same time staring at him. Uruha tried to take his hands away from Aoi but the other gripped it tightly.
“Konbanwa Reita, Kai… Ruki,” Aoi was obviously not pleased to see them. “What brought you here?”
“Is that how you greet your customers? We’re having a vacation here. You see this small guy was so depressed about a certain someone and almost killed himself for being so heartbroken.”
“Ah I see. It’s a shame that he didn’t succeed,” Aoi pulled Uruha. “It’s too late, we’re going to sleep. Enjoy your stay here.”
Ruki grasped Uruha’s other arm, “Let’s talk.”
“Don’t touch him!”
Kai tried to cool the atmosphere. “Calm down both of you, why don’t we drink a beer and have a little chat. It’s been a while since we’ve seen each other. You could join too Uruha.”
“I want to talk to you Uruha… alone!”
“Oi, Ruki…” Kai stopped Ruki.
“Let’s go, Uruha.” Aoi neglected Ruki.
“Aoi, I… I… want to know the truth. Please let me talk to Ruki, Aoi. I…”
Aoi just stared at Uruha. “I understand. Kai let’s have a beer out there… you too Reita. Just call me if this midget does something to you, I’ll definitely kill him.”
Aoi walked away at a certain distance but he could still see Ruki and Uruha. He trust Uruha but he couldn’t trust Ruki anymore. He’s too afraid that everything he worked hard on will just be destroyed. He didn’t want Uruha to be sad anymore. He didn’t want to hear Uruha’s cry every night. He didn’t want Uruha to be involved with Ruki anymore.
“To everything that comes to you… I get jealous Uruha.” Ruki said.
“Ruki… I and Aoi…”
“Finally dating? Is that means I don’t have any chance for you?”
“Ruki… I didn’t realize what you actually felt for me until…”
“Yeah, there are so many things that you did not know.”
“What do you mean?”
“Let’s just summarize it into three. I hope Uruha will stay and keep quiet until I finish, okay? The first one, your mother is already dead. She died of leukemia. Your mother is working at our company because your father had a large debt to us. Before she died, she sold you to us but I think she just wanted someone to watch over her son.”
Uruha was shocked but kept quiet as Ruki pleased.
“Second, do you remember the birthday present that I told you… the one that was worth a lifetime? It was you Uruha. That’s why I always thought you’ll be mine. It was my fault that you didn’t have any friends. I often do something horrible to anyone that tries to become closer to you.”
Uruha fell on his knees. He didn’t want to hear anymore of Ruki’s confessions. Aoi was alarmed to see the look of Uruha. He tried to run to where he was but Kai stopped him. He said that Uruha deserved to hear everything that Ruki have to say. Aoi looked at Reita. He seemed to be worrying about Ruki too.
“Third…” Ruki was shaking. “I… I…” tears fell. “I was the one who did those things to you, Uruha. I’m really sorry! I was supposed to save you from that perverts but when you called Aoi’s name… I lost my control. I… even you… I hurt even you!”
“Then the fourth confession?” another guy interrupted their conversation. “Ruki had been a bad guy, isn’t he?”
“I don’t want to hear anything anymore!” Uruha shouted. Aoi couldn’t surpress his worries anymore. He quickly ran to Uruha, supporting him to stand.
The man clapped his hands. “The final character had entered!”
“Byou! What are you dong here in Japan?” Aoi asked.
“I just wanted to support my brother. He’d been telling things that won’t help. So Uruha, let me tell you the fourth truth. I think Ruki wouldn’t tell you about this.”
“Byou-nii-san, stop this! I wanted to win Uruha back but telling him that… You just wanted to make everything worse!”
“Ruki, you already knew it right? That I just existed to make everything worse for you.” Byou looked at Aoi. “Long time no see… Ah, sumimasen but you better prepare yourself. I have something to say that might not be good to your ears.”
“Shut the crap Byou! Just tell it!”
“Oi oi, take it easy man! You heard him Ruki-chan, Aoi-kun insisted about me telling him the truth. It goes on like this. Mr. Shiroyama and Mrs. Takashima had an affair. It’s been a long time right Ruki? Hmmm…. I think Mrs. Takashima was pregnant when they separated.
“Byou!” Ruki pushed his older brother.
“What are you telling?” Aoi was about to hit Byou when Kazuki came and stopped him.
“You can’t hurt our vocalist like that. The fans will notice his bruise.”
“Is that mean… Aoi is…”
Byou smirked evilly. “Right Uruha, he’s your BROTHER.”
A/N: Yeah, ScReW finally entered! Sorry for doing this right after Aoi and Uruha were lovey-dovey. You see, Aoi and Uruha will become together and Ruki won’t have any chance right? If that happens, it would be the end of story but I don’t want to end it like that. I’m really sorry for this. Uruha loves Aoi just hold on to that fact^^