boys are stupidboysforjerksJuly 28 2003, 05:33:28 UTC
oh darling. it is exciting that you are back.
so yes. we did. & obviously you couldn't have taken me seriously thursday, because i was being weird about it. & i hadn't even really made up my mind yet, i was just trying to psych myself up.
i love brandon, but there comes a point when you have to look at the relationship and say, "is it worth it?"
i feel wretched for him, but there's nothing i can do about it. i've told him i will be there if he needs me but he no longer wants aythign to do with me.
i just need someone who cares. gives me attention. makes me feel wanted & special & important.
& as much as i tried to convince myself it could work with brandon's complete lack of all these things, it couldn't.
i mean, he was sweet & wonderful but it was never enough and it was never really *real* things. never once would he admit to needing me, until after i had actually ended it.
Re: boys are stupidmyfoolishheartJuly 31 2003, 20:09:53 UTC
No, I understand completely.
I was talking to Brendan the other day, and somehow we got onto the subject of whether or not it was fair for Brandon to "want nothing to do with you" &he was all "oh, it so is" &then I was all "psh. whatever. Brandon knew what he needed to do to make Danyel happy, and he had over a year to do it if he wanted to. &he didn't. So it's not as if she was heartless...he has to accept this as his own decision too..."
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it is exciting that you are back.
so yes. we did.
& obviously you couldn't have taken me seriously thursday, because i was being weird about it. & i hadn't even really made up my mind yet, i was just trying to psych myself up.
i love brandon, but there comes a point when you have to look at the relationship and say, "is it worth it?"
i feel wretched for him, but there's nothing i can do about it. i've told him i will be there if he needs me but he no longer wants aythign to do with me.
i just need someone who cares. gives me attention. makes me feel wanted & special & important.
& as much as i tried to convince myself it could work with brandon's complete lack of all these things, it couldn't.
i mean, he was sweet & wonderful but it was never enough and it was never really *real* things. never once would he admit to needing me, until after i had actually ended it.
but i will call you soon.
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I was talking to Brendan the other day, and somehow we got onto the subject of whether or not it was fair for Brandon to "want nothing to do with you" &he was all "oh, it so is" &then I was all "psh. whatever. Brandon knew what he needed to do to make Danyel happy, and he had over a year to do it if he wanted to. &he didn't. So it's not as if she was heartless...he has to accept this as his own decision too..."
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