I'm so thankful for this time I get to spend with Jeremy if he had his original deployment date still he would be leaving in 2 days, but luckily its been extended so he won't leave for alittle bit. So not only will I get to spend christmas with him, but also new years, I'm so happy. I just wish he wasn't going to be away for so long, but I'll ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in the lobby outside my class at UW, and I can not concentrate for anything! I should be doing homework but instead I am myspacing and writing in my livejournal! I'm kinda glad Jeremy will be gone this weekend, I have gotten behind on homework so this weekend will be a good chance to catch up on it all.  I'm starting to wonder if I may ( Read more... )

my life is a journey, one day upon another
love life and live it
never forgetting just what god has granted me
strength is his gift, love his demand
I hold true to my standards
throw fear to the wind
never leave behind the past
but look always forward to the future
remember that all is possible 
above all else love, even in bleak times

Jeremy got the call yesterday the dreaded one that says you'll be leaving your life, and everything you know. He is being deployed in January until now I could pretend the war wasn't real that it didn't effect me, but with that one call it became real and terror set in. Marines are the front lines, they are only given a 6 month deployment for a ( Read more... )

 Sarah if ever is a time for advice I think I need it now.  Jeremy went out with the guys last night, ok fine,but before he left the one thing I asked him to do was come home last night, that's not a crazy request right? he promised but then what does he do but come home a t 7:30 in the morning. All kinds of thoughts flash through my head, because ( Read more... )

Ugh  sometimes I just feel crushed under the weight of all that is piled on me by none other than myself. I want so badly to go to school,  I want to eventually have a good job, I don't want to be like my parents. But I feel like everytime I feel like I have something figured out something happens to crush it. I just feel deflated and defeated and ( Read more... )

TIme seems to be slipping by so fast and I feel like I'm not getting anything accomplished that  I need to before we even start looking at houses. My list of things to get done around the house alone has at least 25 items on it ( Read more... )

I have finals on wednesday. I never used to have test anxiety but I find as I get older and become more aware of what I want out of life I push myself harder and panic when I have to take a test now. I do not feel ready. I feel bad, I've been so stressed out lately with this test coming up and working full time and taking care of Jermey, the house ( Read more... )

We have decided to move to vancouver so I can go to an architecture school down there. Only 7 more classes till I have my  associates, so we will be movin in probably about 6 months to a year. I honestly feel really guilty though, I feel like I'm being selfish, Jeremy says he doesnt mind, but I'm making him pick up his whole life and move, so I can ( Read more... )

Lately I've felt stuck in the same place. I always felt when I was little I wanted a stable life, with no change and I'm learning now that that's not so much what I want. I need some excitement.

I feel so young and like I still have so much more to learn and then I look around me and almost all my friends are married, and having kids and I almost ( Read more... )