"Smile"

Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learned
Awhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and just pretend love
Is not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see that
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the ( Read more... )

dude, i found the sweater with the same picture from my picture thingy...isn't that so cool? and of course, i had to buy it...hehehhehe...i think it's the greatest thing ever! =)

ever have this feeling of emptiness? like pure emptiness? like it hits the pit of your stomach...and you're just kind of like...ow. no? i feel it right now...it's a really strange feeling...especially when you're not exactly sure why you feel that way...

i've come to a conclusion that a lot of things in life...you shouldn't really worry about it...or let it bother you really...you just have to learn to deal with it. so many things you can't change or fix...plus, you have absolutely no control over it--it's beyond you...so you might as well just learn to deal with it...and don't let it upset you in ( Read more... )

here's my entry from my xanga...here ya go ( Read more... )

you know...i had a really good day today. although...i was feeling kind of...down for a little bit...i didn't allow myself to be upset for long. i seriously can't rely on my friends for everything...they've got their own lives to deal with and own people to take care of...and even though i would like to think that i would be one of the people ( Read more... )

i'm starting to realize that i can't really expect anyone to care for me other than myself. not that i don't have friends who care ABOUT me...but i'm saying that i need to take care of myself. i guess i always depended on other people to do that for me...when in all reality, i have to do it for myself...i guess i always enjoyed being babied...and ( Read more... )

today's my daddy's birthday...but i dunno what he's doing or if he's even at home. i think he's actually in taiwan. neway...i just hope he has a good one ( Read more... )

i had a really good day...filled with lots to do...and it made me happy! let's see...i started out with having breakfast/lunch with ghe and katrina...we went to walnut cafe...that was good! but this freakin bee kept attacking me! it was insane...it was like there the entire time i was eating and it wouldn't leave me alone...freakin sucked ( Read more... )

well...let's see...i had lunch with my family...and we got shaved ice...mmm...shaved ice...and then i hung out with ellie...we went to guitar center...and i bought a few things...and then we went over to russ' house ( Read more... )