It's my birthday today. Makes me feel old.

Guess I should enjoy it while I can.

Especially seeing that the doctors say that I might not live until my next one.

Halloween.  I'm getting to old for this.

My sisters have forced the hospital to let me out for the night, on the 31st. They are planning on going trick-or-treating. They're 16 and 20. Possibly a bit too old for Halloween. So, because there is absolutely no way that anyone is going to give them candy, the two have decided to add to their appeal by ( Read more... )

I hate my life.

Yesterday, while trying to get up, I fell out of bed, unfortunatly bringing the cup on the table beside my bed down with me. The cup smashed, and so I am now the proud owner of two heavily bandaged hands, which means that I am even more helpless than usual.

According to my sister, 7 of the bottles of alcohol have gone missing. She ( Read more... )

Have you ever had the feeling that something is not quite right? That's the feeling I've been getting recently. Tachibana-san has been very sick recently, with a fever, and he says that he's fine now, but I can't help but think that something is wrong. Tachibana-san needs to remember that although it's been a while, I'm still there for him and he ( Read more... )

I still have hair. That is very good. My sister also bought me a bandanna to cover up the bald spots. It is light blue, and I think it actually looks quite nice, even if I look a bit pale while wearing it.

Not a single physio who has been asked is willing to take me on. That is a bit insulting, actually. They all have said that they're completely ( Read more... )

My poor hair.

I have been put on another set of experimental drugs, despite the fact that the last set reacted so badly with me, that both me and my doctor vowed never again. For some reason, i seem to be this hospitals chosen test subject, which is making me feel as though I am soon going to end up as just a brain in a jar.

These drugs are meant to ( Read more... )

The psychiatrist came to see me again. I wish that I could say that it went well with her, but it really didn't. She was a nice enough woman, but a little on the patronizing side; she treated me as if I was four. She also wore then ugliest shoes known to mankind. I did point that out, and she did not take it well. They really were ugly; she can't ( Read more... )

They're putting me under psychiatric observation. That's not a good sign.

I don't know what I did wrong, I think I may have been talking to myself about something. I think it might have been about Tachibana-san.  I think I started crying. I remember the nurse started getting scared and called one of the doctors in. I think I hit her; I'm not sure. I ( Read more... )

I want to die ( Read more... )

I swear that Ibu Rumiko is trying to give her mother and me an aneuryism ( Read more... )