For days now I have been nostalgic for spring '06. I can't stop looking at pictures and remembering what that life felt like. I miss pieces of who I was, and who I thought I would become. I'm proud of myself for surviving the past two years (hey, that's something) but feel like I have accomplished very little. Sure, I learned loads about myself ( Read more... )

Tonight was one of those perfect nights at home with friends. It was the type of night I've been longing for, but haven't had in so long I had forgotten it could even exist ( Read more... )

A few days ago a friend of mine told me it seemed like I was afraid to admit that things are (finally) going alright. She said I was acting like the second I said things we're good, my world as I know it would fall apart again. She's right. And it's no way to live ( Read more... )

I went to Washington for two weeks over the holidays. I saw it as a bit of a test. Could I really go back? What would it feel/look like? Could I live in Yakima for a month to transition out of New York and back to Seattle? Is Seattle what I want it to be ( Read more... )

Apparently, I've done a poor job of keeping my friends in "the loop" the past few months. This became clear when four of my closest friends were shocked this past week at the news that my brother had moved. 2 months ago. Woops ( Read more... )

They say home is a feeling, not a place. A few weeks ago I went to Washington for Emily and Shane's wedding extravaganza and a whole lot of visiting. On a hotel bed, in a snot-filled spokane ramada, surrounded by five of my best girls I felt more at home than I can remember feeling in recent history. It is this feeling, and Jessie's words (Wynn ( Read more... )

move #6 in less than one year is complete. transient doesn't even begin to describe it. moving and i don't go together very well. i hate packing almost as much as i hate unpacking. i predict my suitcases will be half full for at least another month. at least my kitchen and bathroom are in working order. well, sort of ( Read more... )

so i told my roommate i wanted to renew our lease for a year and a week later he told me he didn't want to renew a lease with me and wanted his friend to move into my room. so now i need a new place to live. fun.

Somedays, I think Seattle just might be the answer. I was the happiest I've ever been there ( Read more... )

The mid-twenties are exhausting and trying times ( Read more... )