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I just saw Mollie off. She is on the train back home to Texas for a month or two while I go to rehab. I will miss her a lot. She is the best thing to ever happen to me.

People and drugs have been one with one another, at peace with themselves and their habits since before I was even around. Since before the 60s were even around. You could get a kick from a can a coke, back in the days when coca cola had cocaine in it. 7Up would bring ya back up when you were down, thanks to its lithium formula. Something like ( Read more... )

I'm trying to fight. Fight these urges I keep having to do things that will ruin my life. I finally have something good to fight for, so why is it so hard not to mess it up? I'm tired of doing all that I keep doing, I don't want this anymore. Haven't I hurt myself enough? Why do I keep thinking I need to do it again and again?

Dream has a lot of different meanings to everyone who uses the term. Day dreams, dreams of a better future, fantastical dreams, morbid dreams... Dreams that seem so real, you can't believe that it didn't really happen. Were you really asleep then? Are people denying this amazing thing happened, just to push your buttons... or was it all just a ( Read more... )

So, I've been trying to figure out for myself what Gonzo looks like in my style, how it feels to make it. It's when you don't let any limitations hinder you, when you do what feels right to you, even if it may not look conventionally appealing. I think that, in my current state, gonzo will always been a hard thing to reach, but never out of reach.

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