Hola!

[mr_bunbury]

I'm not really in the best of moods so I guess that's why I'm here on LJ. Not that I really want to vent because I would really prefer to save myself the embarrassment, then again, it is a classic: beautiful, secure, seemingly intelligent woman who has it bad for the pathetically emotionally insecure guy who takes some serious steps toward getting

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Harsh

[nimitz]

Halo buddy! I just wanted to say that you don't have to feel funny because of your situation. My personal advice however is not very comforting. I think that you should chalk this one up and make advances for your sole benefit. Even MI_Eric seems generally concerned for the Smileybear. You have tons of support for all sides and we are just trying to help. Any ways, I am tired and I read some of the saddest history material ever, just heart twisting! Check your replys for betting info! Adios mo mo ;)

Re: Harsh

[mr_bunbury]

I know, I wrote a long e-mail to Eric because I didn't feel embarrassed by talking about my feelings. I just know that everyone else I would have talked to would have at least had "I told you so" thoughts and that embarrassment would be about as bad if not worse than the way I was feeling. I totally ignored him tonight and said hi to his mom so he didn't even try to say anything to me as I ignored him and as he was with mommy. I know too that everyone else would be thinking of me as "such a doormat--how can you do that" but I so don't understand what the hell happened as the last time I talked to him he was smiling and hugging me. I feel torn.

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[nimitz]

I understand your feelings but her is my advice. No torn, he is not interested or capable of a meaningful relationship. If he changes his mind he will come to you, his ability to function without concern is a testamony to his lack of ambition. That is my advice, it is not flawless . . . only perfect! hehehehe :P

Re: !

[mr_bunbury]

I agree and had already left a voicemail prior to your posting to the effect that I wouldn't be bothering him with any more messages or calls. But, dang, I would just about kill for a GD explanation no matter how dang convoluted. I told Eric, who has offered to take his "military butt" out "behind the woodshed," that he could use "MANY, MANY [other] lessons from" him. It would be kinda nice to be able to pick who you fall for and how they fall for you. I still hold that there is something very appealing to the whole idea of arranged marriages. D. joked that we should have our moms talk and then nixed that in favor that we should arrange "our" own--after I told him of my opinion; probably because neither of us want to take the responsibility. I think we are similar in that we are better at things when there is some sort of framework or set of rules or a reason outside ourselves like a contract or something--like an objective like "I want my MA so I must do X and I have bound myself to not stray from X to the point that X comes