So life has been really feeling really good as of late. Ray moved in and it's been mad fun I even have the downstairs super clean and I figure if I can keep myself doing that every sunday it should stay that way no problem. The only thing I could talk about that is currently pissing me off and having Debbie ignoring me for reasons I don't know ( Read more... )

I don't know why such little things bother me so much and the things that should be keeping me busy for most of the day don't but oh well. So I went to the school today and I was amused by how many people were happy to see me or shocked and normally that would boost my ego but over the last year I find that it takes more than that to boost my ego ( Read more... )

So I kinda been acting super stressed and down lately. Been finding myself zoning out a lot which isn't good. Then last night I drank abit and really started thinking about a bunch of shit and not what I told debbie I was that shit came out of left field and did what I needed it to do. I find myself not wanting to tell people what is bothering me ( Read more... )

I thought about maybe a thousand times what I would write here just so maybe two people could read it instead of asking me themselves but then I realized I don't care to tell people my business any more because it doesn't do me any good because I am the only one who truly cares about others!

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So I went to Genricon and I was so happy about the whole thing fuck I even worked for two hours and didn't hate my life I enjoyed doing physical labor and not getting paid for it. I want to become pro at this like get in touch with vendors work with them and have them want us to work for them to where our names are out there for us to work anything ( Read more... )

Seems I have more questions then answers these days and I may never get answers to the questions I want to ask everyone and myself. I don't know what I want anymore in my life or general there are so many days that I just want to lay in bed and just not move ever again. I have watched me lose and get rid of so many friends in my life for different ( Read more... )

Okay seriously I have to put this here so I can come back to it later because I have been thinking far to much to process everything once and that is just plain fucked up. Alright so I have realized that I was fucking up so badly not just with my money and shit but with my life and myself and I was letting such dumb shit fuck it up. But the other ( Read more... )

So honestly there is no reason to write this in here because as stated before no one really reads this because I don't give it out so I might put this in my myspace or not ( Read more... )

So getting drunk and high not my best bet for trying to be good. But good for when I can't sleep. I had a whole post figured out  that I was goign to put here but now I think I am going to put it on my myspace now because I figure more people read it and I know people are going to want tot know what has been going on with me anyway. Alright peace ( Read more... )