So after doing much talking with everyone I know I have to get back to life I can't be this way anymore. I get that and I am working on that I really am. Gotta keep my promises and get that damn permit. Working on getting a job again instead of waiting until last minute. Cleaning up my room after weeks of letting it get really bad. Sean is also ( Read more... )

God I can't get these images out of my head every time I close my eyes I just picture her and him and it sucks balls.

It sucks being this sad these days but I won't let it out to much for people to see.

I am as I always am. I will always survive anything life throws at me.

I love this girl and I don't know how to get her out of my mind.

I feel so lost lately I feel like I am wondering through a forest or a fog and I can't figure out which way is out. It's not even one thing anymore it's so many other things ( Read more... )

I really miss Debbie these last few nights it's driving me insane. To an extreme I never knew my body could get it to. I haven't really slept in some time. I hope I can one day get a real nights sleep or god only knows where my mind might go.

I went to church today.

I feel so fucking stupid right now. Why did I listen to dad about this he doesn't know about her like I do. Changing it back makes it seem like I was reading into things again. How does that help me at all. I don't know. This is shit will be the death of me one day ( Read more... )

I feel like I am empty inside like I took out my own heart and crushed it. I feel like my life is crashing around me because first my job then Marko now debbie all of these things I had a hand in losing and I can't get back now. I once had everything and now I have nothing. What does one do when you lose the light in your heart? I have been trying ( Read more... )

I know there are plenty of people who are worrying about me these days and honestly you should stop because there isn't really anything you can do to help me with what I am going through because this is one of those things I have to do on my own. I promise I won't lose myself or lock myself away because I know that is a bad thing all together. I ( Read more... )

Can't sleep at all thinking of going out to walk around the campus haven't picked yet just to think more and more about this but I am not sure. I thought about all the things I could write about but I am not sure what I could if i even thought about this honestly. But I think I am going to stick with what I originally thought..... Nah never mind ( Read more... )

Have you ever wondered why you believed something? I have plenty of times. The idea of soulmates think of the idea one person who your soul cries out to and wants to be with. Now sounds nuts till you think about it in a bigger sense. Think of the amount of people one the planet then think of the other planets. Then the other solar systems etc. Then ( Read more... )

so can anyone honestly explain that when a woman some how pisses me off to the point I can't stop of ways of fucking her day up that I wonder WTF I did??? Because I don't know why I do it but that's the first thing that I think of. Then I start to ponder about how I can just cut that bitch out of my heart and start anew. But the last few days I ( Read more... )