If she doesn't go away, I'll loose my mind. You are mine. I'm sick of it, I'm tired of it.
Tell me how I'm supposed to feel, when this is the shittiest position I've been put into ever.

I've realized why it is I'm so needy and I'm the way I am..
I have this fear of loosing what I have, which isn't alot. I have my parents, my sister, and my love.  I don't have many friends, and the ones I have there own lives. I have no faith that they will be there all the time, because many of them haven't been, and many of them have turned their ( Read more... )

It sucks when you get your period at 5am, can't sleep due to cramps, then have to be up in a few hours for work, where stupid people say stupid things and get on your nerves. Sometimes, I wish I had a penis, but then I realize I wouldn't be where I am now, and wouldn't have the amazing things I have... but it'd still be easier I think..
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Sketching your faces, I still don't know why you're permanent
You want all of the moments stolen
Blind alleys and hallways to basements
said you want to hide till you disappear because
nothing and nowhere is golden

apartments are cages, i still don't know what is permanent
maybe all my possessions were precious
truth is all my possessions i somehow lost
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Happy Holiday that Shurie doesn't celebrate.. Except this yeah I'm going to go eat free food. =)


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Sometimes I miss the security, the knowing what comes next or what to expect when I wake up. The understanding that it wasn't perfect and it could never be perfect.
I wouldn't go back to it, and I'm glad it's over, but the security of it all was better then the waiting of this. If I could change one thing, it'd be that we were secure.
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Hi, my name is Shurie. I have trust issues, emotional issues, and even some physical issues.  I have been through more things then a girl my age needs to, I have seen more then things then you need to know about. I have been emotionally and physically abused and it effects my everyday actions. I over analyze, I over react, and it's just how I am.

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When I'm not feeling well, emotionally, physically, mentally, there is only one place I can run to, and that's my parents' house.
It's amazing how calm and peaceful that place is, even with the all the noise and animals, and smells.
I went the other day to see my sister.. I shouldn't have cause I didn't have the money for gas, but I needed to get ( Read more... )

sometimes I feel
I bore you.
sometimes I fear
I uninterest you.
sometimes I feel
I love you to much.
sometimes I fear
you love me not enough.

But it's only sometimes.

So anyways, I have a headache, work was boring and I fear I might have to quit and get a new job, with more hours.. cause I can't live off these hours.. granted I love my job and the people I ( Read more... )