How can you not love kids? If you like people you must love kids. I look at my kids at the daycare and I can see the people they will become and sure some of them are annoying but they are fascinating. Some are inhibited already and self absorbed, and too self aware for some reason. Some are pure and wild and interested and give you their opinion ( Read more... )

sick at home today, the flu is going around at work. I had a fever this morning that has mostly gone away but I can't believe how achy and terrible i feel. I wish I had gone in just to be doing something besides sitting here feeling terrible with nothing good on TV. okay, actually not, because then i'd give it to all the kids and they'd come in ( Read more... )

just another day ( Read more... )

another bad, bad dream two days ago and it has shook me up good. here I was going along fine dealing with every little thing and then Wham. And it just kind of shuts me down. I got good and drunk this weekend and read a great novel about womens coming out stories and it helped alot to see how people have dealt with the traumas in their lives. ( Read more... )

it is the part of you that is aware of other's body language and their needs, and acts contrary to helping them out. it is the part of you that is selfish and mean because you think it is the only way to protect yourself and save your energy. it is the part of yourself that sometimes feels OK and connects with others on a level beyond language and ( Read more... )

Goals -
-be less spacey
-be more aware of whats around me, less involuntary daydreaming - be more responsive
-be less on autopilot when hanging out with people
-be less avoidant
-be more observant of people, not scared of eye contact

things going good lately
job interview tomorrow!
question for the unconcious - why do i always assume? why not just ask? why do i always jump to conclusions? am i trying to show i am into the other person? smart? intuitive? cuz it tends to just make things awkward and is usually wrong.

ug. woke at 6 when he went to work and he kept asking me stuff and hugging every time i started to fall back asleep and so i couldn't go back to sleep and just got up. now have to take M and niece around all day and then drive home and see mom&dad and then drive back and then take M to church and then drive to his family's for easter dinner. it ( Read more... )

just me and the bottle, relaxin'. the boy is sleepin ( Read more... )

i have a hard time seeing myself as others see me. I have been trying to exercise the habit of thinking about what others are thinking, more, but i always find myself awkward, assuming others know what I mean when i haven;t explained myself properly. it's something often seen in autistic people, for who knows what reason. I've always had the ( Read more... )