Glee | Me & My Shadow & Our Disorders | Emma & Suzy (4 of 7)
Started my daily ficlets to make the hiatus pass, then decided to keep going with a 2nd cycle, and then a 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th, 10th and 11th cycle. Now cycle 12!
Yes, another hiatus is upon us! I'm working to plan out those summer cycles, so if you have things you would like to see get written, pleeease drop by the suggestion box. The link is further down!
This is another 7-chapter story! :D Chapter 4 of 7
"ME & MY SHADOW & OUR DISORDERS"
Emma & Suzy Pepper
This was by no means the first time this had come to happen at McKinley, but Emma didn’t mind it. If anything, she looked forward to it. She liked the idea of letting students see what she did, what everyone did. Sure, some of them may not be the best of role models, but there were still some of them who had something good to present… some of them who weren’t all up in arms about this review. She had nothing to worry about on that side.
On Monday morning, she was on her way to her office, figuring her shadow would come to meet her there. On the way there though, she had to pass the Glee room. When she did, she saw movement out of the corner of her eye and gave a quick look. Her feet stopped and she sighed. There was a day where she wouldn’t even have hesitated; she would have just gone right in… even just to say hello. Now there was something in her stomach that told her ‘don’t.’ But she still wanted to, she…
She heard the sound of a crash, loud, followed by Will’s voice. “Damn…” she heard him say. On reflex, she stepped back and entered the room. The sound appeared to have been the jazz ensemble’s instruments, toppling over. Will was working to pick them back up.
“What happened?” she asked. He looked back and breathed out.
“I, uh, I knocked them over,” he explained sheepishly. She moved forward and started picking up the fallen instruments with him. “Thanks,” he spoke after a moment, looking at her. She looked back.
“Oh, sure,” she assured with a smirk. They just couldn’t escape these moments, apparently… And then there was a sound from behind them, someone clearing their throat. They both looked back at the same time, froze at the same time, seeing Suzy Pepper at the door.
“Morning,” she greeted them. Will and Emma looked to one another… They both had the same thought, neither of them believing it could be that they’d pair her with him, after what had happened.
“Suzy, what are you… I mean, you’re not with me, are you?” Will asked, careful with his words.
“Oh, no,” she shook her head, and he breathed, just as Suzy’s gaze shifted to the guidance counselor at his side. Emma looked surprised… and a little freaked out at the thought of being paired with the girl. She’d been given a rundown of the whole situation with her and Will… She wasn’t sure what would happen. Was she over that whole thing? Would she relapse by being with Emma for a week, if she knew about the history with her and Will?
“Well, I…” Emma started, looked to Will. “Are you okay here?” He nodded. “Okay… Let’s head back to my office, yes?” she moved to guide Suzy over there. Once they arrived, Emma quickly got her hands a shot of sanitizer before turning back to her shadow. “I’m surprised you haven’t done this already.”
“Well, let’s just say there were extenuating circumstances,” the girl gave a slow nod, which Emma mirrored awkwardly.
“Right, of… course… Well that’s alright, I… I’m sure you’ll find the experience rewarding. I know I do.”
“Well I just sit here, don’t I?” Suzy shrugged, and Emma was silenced for a moment before going into a nod.
“That’s part of it, yes, but there’s more to it than that,” she tried to sound inviting, found it came off odd and sat back in her chair. “Right, okay,” she mumbled and cleared her throat, looking back to Suzy. “I have some appointments this morning, but after that…” she gestured as Suzy moved to sit on the chair Emma had put on the side of the desk for her.
Emma had her morning appointments, where Suzy followed the conversations like an avid tennis fan. The students had some trouble ignoring her presence, and the intense gaze. As the last of the morning appointments had ended, Emma was just putting away the files when she looked back and saw Will walk by in the hall. He looked back, held up his hand in a passing greeting. Emma did the same, nervously. Once he’d gone, she remembered her shadow and turned back to find Suzy staring out in the hall still, with her hands folded in her lap the way they’d been all morning. The two shared a look as Emma went back to sit.
“I’m guessing you know about all that,” Suzy started. Emma nodded, not pretending otherwise. “I-I’m over it, I swear,” she came back to sit across from Emma. “You’re not though.” Before Emma could reply, she continued. “Did you really call him a slut?’ she whispered. “Why did you call him a slut?”
“I-I don’t think that this is an appropriate topic at this time… you shouldn’t be…” she shook her head.
“Who else would you be able to talk to in this school who would understand this whole Will Schuester infatuation? Besides Rachel Berry…” Suzy pointed out. Emma looked at her, feeling as much as she wouldn’t say it, Suzy was kind of right.
“Let’s… let’s go for lunch,” Emma grabbed her things. The subject was dropped for the rest of the day. Suzy remained, observing Emma’s work.
When she’d arrived home though, Emma had these ideas still in her head. Putting away her jewelry as she changed for bed, she saw the card Will had given her, still on her desk. She had taken steps to work on these problems… It was not something she liked to do, it was… embarrassing…. But she did it for him, for the chance that they could be together… And then she’d found out about his adventures with Boozy and the Enemy…
But she was fighting for him, still fighting, and after thinking about Suzy’s words, she’d decided… maybe it was time she kicked up her efforts a notch… small notch, a nick really…
So the next day, she had arrived at McKinley, less forceful on her usual tendencies. It was hard not to fall back on the old ways, and sometimes she did ‘cheat’… improvement was the goal here, not perfection. Suzy continued to do her quietly intense job of freaking out the students who would visit her.
The further the day went, the more she became… It was almost a mix of pride and terror, but she carried on. Even as she arrived home, she continued as she’d done all day. The idea was to just keep on powering through.
It was on the morning of day three that her resolve began to crack. She was discovering the results of her behavior the previous day, and the results were just too much for her to deal with, so much that she barely noticed as Suzy came in.
“Morning, Miss…” Emma jumped and yelped. “… Pillsbury.” The redhead straightened up.
“Morning, Suzy,” she breathed.
“Are you okay?” Suzy asked as Emma got up and circled her desk to head out into the hall. Suzy had just taken her seat, but she got back up when Emma passed her.
“Oh no, no, no, you don’t need to shadow me for this, you just stay here, okay? Okay,” Emma spoke quickly before heading out.
She tried to make it to the bathroom as fast as she could, keeping her arms as close to herself as she could. She bumped into a few people as she went, but she just mumbled an apology and went on her way.
In the bathroom, she gave her hands a good scrub, but stopped to look in the mirror. She breathed out, seeing her reflection.
She was trying, really trying… If Suzy could make a change, so could she…
THE END
* IN CONSTRUCTION! *
PREVIOUS DAYS
[Cycle 1] [Cycle 2] [Cycle 3] [Cycle 4]
[Cycle 5] [Cycle 6] [Cycle 7] [Cycle 8]
[Cycle 9] [Cycle 10] [Cycle 11]
[Cycle 12]
[232] [233] [234] [235] [236]
[237] [238] [239] [240] [241]
[242] [243] [244] [245]
[ [246] [247] [248]]
Suggestion Drop Off
Title: "Me & My Shadow & Our Disorders"
Pairing: None; Emma & Suzy Pepper
Rating: G
Summary: It's chaos at McKinley, for one day with the faculty and an assignment...
Spoilers: 117 Bad Reputation-ish
Yes, another hiatus is upon us! I'm working to plan out those summer cycles, so if you have things you would like to see get written, pleeease drop by the suggestion box. The link is further down!
This is another 7-chapter story! :D Chapter 4 of 7
"ME & MY SHADOW & OUR DISORDERS"
Emma & Suzy Pepper
This was by no means the first time this had come to happen at McKinley, but Emma didn’t mind it. If anything, she looked forward to it. She liked the idea of letting students see what she did, what everyone did. Sure, some of them may not be the best of role models, but there were still some of them who had something good to present… some of them who weren’t all up in arms about this review. She had nothing to worry about on that side.
On Monday morning, she was on her way to her office, figuring her shadow would come to meet her there. On the way there though, she had to pass the Glee room. When she did, she saw movement out of the corner of her eye and gave a quick look. Her feet stopped and she sighed. There was a day where she wouldn’t even have hesitated; she would have just gone right in… even just to say hello. Now there was something in her stomach that told her ‘don’t.’ But she still wanted to, she…
She heard the sound of a crash, loud, followed by Will’s voice. “Damn…” she heard him say. On reflex, she stepped back and entered the room. The sound appeared to have been the jazz ensemble’s instruments, toppling over. Will was working to pick them back up.
“What happened?” she asked. He looked back and breathed out.
“I, uh, I knocked them over,” he explained sheepishly. She moved forward and started picking up the fallen instruments with him. “Thanks,” he spoke after a moment, looking at her. She looked back.
“Oh, sure,” she assured with a smirk. They just couldn’t escape these moments, apparently… And then there was a sound from behind them, someone clearing their throat. They both looked back at the same time, froze at the same time, seeing Suzy Pepper at the door.
“Morning,” she greeted them. Will and Emma looked to one another… They both had the same thought, neither of them believing it could be that they’d pair her with him, after what had happened.
“Suzy, what are you… I mean, you’re not with me, are you?” Will asked, careful with his words.
“Oh, no,” she shook her head, and he breathed, just as Suzy’s gaze shifted to the guidance counselor at his side. Emma looked surprised… and a little freaked out at the thought of being paired with the girl. She’d been given a rundown of the whole situation with her and Will… She wasn’t sure what would happen. Was she over that whole thing? Would she relapse by being with Emma for a week, if she knew about the history with her and Will?
“Well, I…” Emma started, looked to Will. “Are you okay here?” He nodded. “Okay… Let’s head back to my office, yes?” she moved to guide Suzy over there. Once they arrived, Emma quickly got her hands a shot of sanitizer before turning back to her shadow. “I’m surprised you haven’t done this already.”
“Well, let’s just say there were extenuating circumstances,” the girl gave a slow nod, which Emma mirrored awkwardly.
“Right, of… course… Well that’s alright, I… I’m sure you’ll find the experience rewarding. I know I do.”
“Well I just sit here, don’t I?” Suzy shrugged, and Emma was silenced for a moment before going into a nod.
“That’s part of it, yes, but there’s more to it than that,” she tried to sound inviting, found it came off odd and sat back in her chair. “Right, okay,” she mumbled and cleared her throat, looking back to Suzy. “I have some appointments this morning, but after that…” she gestured as Suzy moved to sit on the chair Emma had put on the side of the desk for her.
Emma had her morning appointments, where Suzy followed the conversations like an avid tennis fan. The students had some trouble ignoring her presence, and the intense gaze. As the last of the morning appointments had ended, Emma was just putting away the files when she looked back and saw Will walk by in the hall. He looked back, held up his hand in a passing greeting. Emma did the same, nervously. Once he’d gone, she remembered her shadow and turned back to find Suzy staring out in the hall still, with her hands folded in her lap the way they’d been all morning. The two shared a look as Emma went back to sit.
“I’m guessing you know about all that,” Suzy started. Emma nodded, not pretending otherwise. “I-I’m over it, I swear,” she came back to sit across from Emma. “You’re not though.” Before Emma could reply, she continued. “Did you really call him a slut?’ she whispered. “Why did you call him a slut?”
“I-I don’t think that this is an appropriate topic at this time… you shouldn’t be…” she shook her head.
“Who else would you be able to talk to in this school who would understand this whole Will Schuester infatuation? Besides Rachel Berry…” Suzy pointed out. Emma looked at her, feeling as much as she wouldn’t say it, Suzy was kind of right.
“Let’s… let’s go for lunch,” Emma grabbed her things. The subject was dropped for the rest of the day. Suzy remained, observing Emma’s work.
When she’d arrived home though, Emma had these ideas still in her head. Putting away her jewelry as she changed for bed, she saw the card Will had given her, still on her desk. She had taken steps to work on these problems… It was not something she liked to do, it was… embarrassing…. But she did it for him, for the chance that they could be together… And then she’d found out about his adventures with Boozy and the Enemy…
But she was fighting for him, still fighting, and after thinking about Suzy’s words, she’d decided… maybe it was time she kicked up her efforts a notch… small notch, a nick really…
So the next day, she had arrived at McKinley, less forceful on her usual tendencies. It was hard not to fall back on the old ways, and sometimes she did ‘cheat’… improvement was the goal here, not perfection. Suzy continued to do her quietly intense job of freaking out the students who would visit her.
The further the day went, the more she became… It was almost a mix of pride and terror, but she carried on. Even as she arrived home, she continued as she’d done all day. The idea was to just keep on powering through.
It was on the morning of day three that her resolve began to crack. She was discovering the results of her behavior the previous day, and the results were just too much for her to deal with, so much that she barely noticed as Suzy came in.
“Morning, Miss…” Emma jumped and yelped. “… Pillsbury.” The redhead straightened up.
“Morning, Suzy,” she breathed.
“Are you okay?” Suzy asked as Emma got up and circled her desk to head out into the hall. Suzy had just taken her seat, but she got back up when Emma passed her.
“Oh no, no, no, you don’t need to shadow me for this, you just stay here, okay? Okay,” Emma spoke quickly before heading out.
She tried to make it to the bathroom as fast as she could, keeping her arms as close to herself as she could. She bumped into a few people as she went, but she just mumbled an apology and went on her way.
In the bathroom, she gave her hands a good scrub, but stopped to look in the mirror. She breathed out, seeing her reflection.
She was trying, really trying… If Suzy could make a change, so could she…
THE END
* IN CONSTRUCTION! *
PREVIOUS DAYS
[Cycle 1] [Cycle 2] [Cycle 3] [Cycle 4]
[Cycle 5] [Cycle 6] [Cycle 7] [Cycle 8]
[Cycle 9] [Cycle 10] [Cycle 11]
[Cycle 12]
[232] [233] [234] [235] [236]
[237] [238] [239] [240] [241]
[242] [243] [244] [245]
[ [246] [247] [248]]
Suggestion Drop Off
Title: "Me & My Shadow & Our Disorders"
Pairing: None; Emma & Suzy Pepper
Rating: G
Summary: It's chaos at McKinley, for one day with the faculty and an assignment...
Spoilers: 117 Bad Reputation-ish