Now the time has come there are things to realize

[montecristo]

I met someone on OKStupid and I went on a date. Her name is Michele, and she dropped me a line on the fourth and we exchanged a few messages and a phone call and set up a time to meet. Our date ran from seven to eight at Starbucks here in town. We had a nice conversation

Comments

[pinguthegreek]

Do you really want to date or are you doing it because you think you should?

Should I stay or should I go now?

[montecristo]

"Should" is not the issue. It's more a matter of inertia. For whatever else it might be, my solitude is often comfortable and always familiar. Sometimes though, I get to missing the companionship and intimacy of having a partner, not to mention a bedmate. Sometimes, I even miss my Dear Ex. It's like some kind of internal pull. I suppose the word "yearning" fits, although in the times when I'm not experiencing that pull I shy away from words like that one because such a word implies an emotion to which action "should" be taken in response. If I felt that yearning all the time, I would date more often and more enthusiastically. When it's there, it's an itch I want to scratch. The thing is, I don't feel it all the time. K.D. Lang's "Constant Craving" is what I do not have. As I said, perhaps it's just chemistry, or rather, lack thereof. When I get interested in someone, it's generally pretty compelling.