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[monstermommy]

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truth hurts

[toomuchtrust]

as a fellow libra, reading that horoscope gave me a pain in the pit of my stomach. im facing truths about a lot of things, and there are three things i fear that come to mind instantly. facing truth IS setting me on fire, and ive been showing others truths as well. my mom is coming to visit next week, and my goal is to tell her the truth about my life and find out all the things she has been keeping from me to establish a woman to woman relationship with my mom, a woman consumed in her own lies. im imaging a lot of hurt. maybe ill try the setting the list on fire thing.

Re: truth hurts

[monstermommy]

if you want to talk... i'm here. you know the number.

i've given up on having a woman-to-woman relationship with my mother. and i've stopped worrying about it. she is not willing to understand that just because she wouldn't make "Choice X", it's not necessarily bad.

*sigh*

[Burn it!!]

Re: truth hurts

[toomuchtrust]

my mom comes into town next thursday to spend 4 days with me in my new (and now furnished!) apartment. its going to be interesting. i want to be open with her about who i am since my parents havent really known much about my life since high school, i just dont know how she will react. there is also so much i dont know about her. i atleast want to try, my counselor reminded me that i cant change our relationship from her side, only from mine. she is set in her ways, i just have to change how i handle her. im just afraid of her being like "its ok, be open" while she is passing all kinds of judgement. we have the same relationship her and her mother had, and i dont know if that can change if she isnt willing to take any steps. she is really excited about coming here, and really excited that i want to spend so much time with her. its all just so confusing. how am i going to fuck up my kids?