the bagpipers are having their weekly practice where they march around a parking lot squeaking mournfully in their kilts. i wish bagpipes didn't make me feel vaguely sad, like someone had died and we were about to commemorate them with a twenty-something gun salute. i'm really not in the mood to feel vaguely sad today. you see, i already feel ( Read more... )

i'm making an entry. you know why? because at least it's something to do, and nobody in charlotte does anything ever, for any reason. nobody did anything for cinco de mayo and nobody's doing anything tonight, and if they are, they didn't tell me about it. for cinco de mayo, drew and molly and i watched 24 hour party people and drank white wine ( Read more... )

i went to the grocery store without crying. the grocery store is very hard for me, almost all of the time ( Read more... )

last night i went to bed at 11:30. i was tired! while i was asleep, lots of people texted me and it didn't even wake me up! i was mad about that when i got up this morning. i was also mad because the reason i got up was a british boy from my class calling to ask why i wasn't at a meeting. i didn't know there was a meeting. that was why i wasn ( Read more... )

i spent my easter going to the grocery store and then writing a very long and mournful story abotu going to the grocery store. then i watched reruns of america's next top model and the wrong person won. she was so plain! if having pale skin and blue and brown hair was anything special, my life would be much more exciting, i think. there are two ( Read more... )

today i wrote a long story about different kinds of people. i mean, it was about more than that. it was a good story. it wasn't even sad ( Read more... )

ever since i had six days off and i just drank tea and read every day, i can't seem to stay awake past 11. but i will have to tonight, and then again tomorrow, because there is a party and i am going. i mean, i don't know if its a party, really, but there will be people there ( Read more... )

i am having a great vacation ( Read more... )

last night was nice. molly put her arm around my waist and left it there for a while, which made me feel less like throwing up. molly has a nice scissors necklace. i mean, i already have an acorn necklace and a watch necklace and a leaf necklace and a locket and a tiger's eye necklace and three rings i wear always, oh and also a wishbone necklace ( Read more... )

i looked at some pictures until they made me cry and now i just can't get over how different my life is now from how it was a year ago and how i just fucked everything up by not being patient and i just want to explain to everyone that, like, that was me, that used to be me, i could be that RIGHT NOW, that could be me RIGHT NOW and its not me, its ( Read more... )