Oneshot, KyoxGara

[mo_chan_tf]

Title: Numb
Bands: Dir en grey, Merry, MUCC & Daisuke to Kuro no Injatachi
Pairing: KyoxGara, hints of TatsurouxDaisuke
Theme: #05. Anger (For 50stories)
Rating: PG-13Word Count: ~2,020

Comments

[gioiadivisione]

I think I really needed this, I might be the only one to say that, but it's true. Someone needed to express something about what happened.

Thank you, so much.

[mo_chan_tf]

Thank -you- for reading and for saying that, really. x) I was in doubt about posting this, because most people are probably not ready to read this kind of story, but I showed it to a friend of mine and she said it was beautiful and, besides, it's my own way of dealing with what happened. I've been having lots of ideas and ignoring them, but when I decided to try and write this one down yesterday, I actually liked the result. I can also say I feel a little better after writing this, it's like I've taken some things off my chest...

Anyway, thanks again. :)

[gioiadivisione]

You're quite welcome, it was a beautiful piece in it's own right, no matter how hard it was to read. I sent to to a friend of mine who's been taking his death pretty hard in hopes that it might be a bit of peace for her as well. She had just ordered The Studs DVD and received it 2 days before his death. She, still, has not been able to bring herself to watch it :/.

[mo_chan_tf]

Yeah, I can imagine; it was not easy to write this, either. I hope your friend gets something from reading this, too. Thanks for recommending it to her, btw. x)

I've only watched the studs dvd once, but I dunno when I'll have the courage to see it again, at least by myself... the week following his death, I went to a friend's house and we watched Kagerou's last live. D8 I've always cried watching that because of Daisuke's undeniable sadness on stage, but this time it was for very different reasons, nee.

[jikhyun]

1st jasmine yuu now daisuke ochida its's not fair. both r gone too soon. kyo who rarely if ever blogs took the time to do so shows just what a great guy he is. even if he is standoffish to the fans. the fic was sad but sweet.

[mo_chan_tf]

yup, there's been some scary losses lately, and besides being too soon, it just feels like it's not fair, right?

yup, Kyo's message surprised me as in, I wasn't expecting him to say anything about it, but at the same time it's not that surprising since it's no news that he and Daisuke were friends. What Kyo said and the way he said it made me cry, too... I wonder if Gara is ever gonna say anything about it, but I highly doubt that, considering how much time has gone by. Anyway, what Kyo, Tatsurou and so many others have been saying about Daisuke just shows that he was so loved and how much we're all gonna miss/missing him...

Thanks for reading the fic. :)

[murhaballadi]

Thank you so much for writing and posting this. I really, really needed this, and I've been thinking about writing about Ochida-san's passing and his friends' reactions and all but I just haven't been able to. I'm glad you did it for me, and I'm glad you did it so well. This fic is simple and beatiful and... Well, it hurts - but it heals, too. The end is very comforting, and the idea of Ochida-san's friends sticking together and helping eachother in these horrible circumstances comforts me much. I wish they aren't alone with their loss and the sorrow cost by it.

Thank you.

[murhaballadi]

Sorry for stupid writing errors, I phailed hard. :D

[mo_chan_tf]

Don't worry~ I'm not a native speaker and I often make mistakes without realizing. lol

[mo_chan_tf]

You're more than welcome, bb! And thank you for reading and for saying such nice things! I'm glad this story seems to be doing some good after all.

Well, it hurts - but it heals, too.

Yeah, that's the feeling I got from writing it... I needed something to let my emotions flow and I guess that's the best way I could find to do it.

The end is very comforting, and the idea of Ochida-san's friends sticking together and helping eachother in these horrible circumstances comforts me much.

nee? I know that Gara and Tatsurou have got together some times and that Tatsurou, Yukke, Karyu, Hizumi and some others have met up to drink in Daisuke's honor... I hope Kyo has done the same, but I'm not sure about him, since he's so reserved and Dir en grey started touring abroad not much longer after what happened.

Thank -you- once again for taking the time to read and say something here. :)

[aeshinya_tati]

tow atrasada, Mow D8 desculpa, eu realmente não tinha visto o teu tweet D8

vou comentar em português mesmo, porque eu sei que em inglês eu talvez não consiga dizer o que eu quero dizer, do jeito que eu quero dizer e... enfim~

foi uma das fics mais bonitas que eu já li, sério. tu sabe que eu não sou muito boa em ler em inglês ainda, então talvez eu tenha percebido o clima da fic errado, mas ela me pareceu tão triste e tão bonita ao mesmo tempo.

doeu ler, mas acho que foi bom ao mesmo tempo. eu tow feliz que tu tenha escrito sobre isso, porque na maior parte do tempo eu tento só não pensar no assunto, e em como eles tão e esse tipo de coisas... mas às vezes eu fico com raiva de mim mesma, porque eu não devia tar simplesmente deixando isso pra lá, sabe.

eu achei maravilhoso tudo o que eles disseram. eu acho que o jeito como o Gara se sentiu... bom, acho que deve ser meio assim quando tu perde uma pessoa com a qual tu convivia e tal. pelo menos em alguns casos.

tá linda mesmo a fic, Mow :3

[lisie_zetsubou]

desculpa eu estar atrasada também, mas é que o meu twitter parece não estar recebendo todos os replies. :/

eu não sei como comentar direito, mas eu queria dizer que eu li e que ela tá realmente muito boa. é fofa a maneira como o Kyo se preocupa com o Gara e com o estado que ele está, mesmo que não se tenha muito pra fazer, sabe. eu amo tanto a maneira calma e serena como tu faz a relação deles dois. é tão bom de ler. ♥

o meu egoísmo procura não pensar muito em como eles estão agora, sem o Daisuke. em como eles ficaram com a notícia ou coisa do tipo. porque eu sei que, se já é muito difícil pra gente, imagina pra eles que estavam sempre ali com ele, ne. mas acho que tu conseguiu expressar da mesma forma que eu penso.

acho que todo mundo ficou assim, duro e sem ação.

de alguma forma, achei bom ler a fic também. afinal, as coisas tem que voltar, não como eram antes, porque nunca vão ser, mas elas tem que voltar. e eu acho que, assim como eles, a gente também, ne.

They’re moving, and they’re trying, and they’re slow because they’