i have thrush. i am taking medicine called Nystatin. it's a thick, gritty, yellow mess of a liquid that i need to swoosh around in my mouth for two minutes, and subsequently swallow, four times each day. it makes my stomach feel really weird and like i am going to throw up ( Read more... )

i think i have a yeast infection in my mouth? that sounds really horribly gross, but it is not even cool, just weird-feeling. my lips have been chapped for a week and nothing has worked (vit e oil, olive oil, shea butter, two different chapsticks, drinking lots of water) so i went to check out my favorite "help my body" message board. and it seems ( Read more... )

i am very anxious and upset and i do not know what to do about it because i am very deep inside of it and am having a really hard time thinking objectively. i also face difficulties in convincing myself to spend time with other people much of the time, but then i feel very upset that i am not directing my energy toward others, and that my positive ( Read more... )

i'm stressing myself out because i found out today that i am going to get four of my teeth pulled out of my face on monday! which is four days away from now or something, i honestly have no clue about which day today may be. i got job a new home, finally, it's a rather large aquarium, so that is good. only, the top is that of a fish tank, and not ( Read more... )

i keep trying to talk to my parents about my belief system but they aren't entirely open to understanding, i think. HOLY SHIT BEST FRIENDS FOREVER IS THE CUTEST MUSIC EVER. i have mostly just been listening to bff and paul baribeau, exclusively. anything to bring on the smiles, really. I HATE MY JOB I HATE MY JOB. blah blah blah

when i have been awake, i have been very much like a bear entering hibernation. eating, spending most of my time gathering things and putting them away, sitting in one room for long periods of time and not socializing. and then i try to sleep for long amounts of time, or i do sleep for long amounts of time, and then i stand up and start over ( Read more... )

human beings have really been crushing my vibe, if you know what i mean. extend compassion, extend compassion, extend compassion, extend compassion, punch in the face

which brings me to a second point about how i am not particularly good at anything in the physical world

i don't think that i will ever have the capacity to play guitar. i think that i am guitar-ded, if you will. because i simply can not do it. i have tried extensively many times. with a piano, i can at least make nice sounds. i can follow instructions, even interpret the written music... for a piano. however, when i get the urge (and this happens ( Read more... )

i went to boston on a whim, heard that maybe the circus would be there. met up with jay and michelle, went to jp for the circus (which included glass eating, fire breathing, and cute hippies with incredible talents), went back to jay's house and smoked a blunt together and watched trailer park boys and ordered a pizza, hah, it was like college ( Read more... )