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i have thrush. i am taking medicine called Nystatin. it's a thick, gritty, yellow mess of a liquid that i need to swoosh around in my mouth for two minutes, and subsequently swallow, four times each day. it makes my stomach feel really weird and like i am going to throw up.
I AM SO UNHAPPY. i can not deal with physical pain that i do not choose, at least not very well. and on top of me feeling shitty and down, armen is in town and i can't see him and if i don't see him in the next twenty-four hours, i don't know when i will be able to. and i haven't in... eight years? feels that way, anyhow.
oh and they sent me home from work because they decided that thrush is incredibly contagious. but it's not, i don't think, incredibly contagious. only if i kiss you or share mouth things with you, which i generally don't do at the hot dog stand.
i just want to cuddle with my friends and get high and not worry about my body or my future. BUT NONE OF THESE THINGS ARE HAPPENING.
I AM SO UNHAPPY. i can not deal with physical pain that i do not choose, at least not very well. and on top of me feeling shitty and down, armen is in town and i can't see him and if i don't see him in the next twenty-four hours, i don't know when i will be able to. and i haven't in... eight years? feels that way, anyhow.
oh and they sent me home from work because they decided that thrush is incredibly contagious. but it's not, i don't think, incredibly contagious. only if i kiss you or share mouth things with you, which i generally don't do at the hot dog stand.
i just want to cuddle with my friends and get high and not worry about my body or my future. BUT NONE OF THESE THINGS ARE HAPPENING.