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Smoky woke me up early this morning, when she decided half the stuff on my table should be on the floor. I woke up and I couldn't get back to sleep
Then I bawled my eyes out.
I'm tired of being alone and I'm tired of getting hurt. -
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I finished a chapter today. I actually liked how this one ended. It's got some zazz that's been missing in some of the more recent chapters. I actually felt inspired for a brief bit, and 700 words just flew out of me. I wish the whole book was like that ( Read more... ) -
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I sit here, not knowing what to say.
Yep, just came back, like 5 hours later. Still nothing.
I just wish...that I could connect with someone. And that it would actually mean something. -
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I don't know where I am in life right now. I thought I knew where I could stand, but I guess I don't. The whole time I was growing up, I thought it was simple. You go to school, you do well, you go to college. You get a degree, you find a job, you find a girl. You get married, you have kids, you raise them. You have friends, they stay your friends ( Read more... ) -
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So, I remembered that I was supposed to keep up with my LJ. I haven't been. Let's start over ( Read more... ) -
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I'm a mess. I think I love a girl who doesn't love me. I don't have a job, and am generally aimless in that department. I just want to be special to someone. And I'm not. What do you do when you're lost? -
Buried
keep the words
bite my tongue
swallow softly
back into lungs
tender feelings
must repress
bury deeply
into my chest
push them down
into my gut
close the door
nail it shut
smile broadly
everything's ok
true feelings
not displayed
anxiety
nervous tics
display themselves
stop them quick
someone tell me
what to do
when what you love
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right where it belongs...
So I didn't do a whole lot today. I played Batman:Arkham Asylum. I beat the story mode last night, and found all the Riddler challenges today. There's still the fight and predator challenges, but I don't know if I'm going to finish them. It's a fun game. I went to the post office and mailed off a board game. Went to Target and picked up a few ( Read more... ) -
on and on and on and on....
Happy Labor Day. or Happy Unemployed Day. I just finished dinner with my family. We had grilled chicken and sourdough rolls and corn on the cob. It was pretty good ( Read more... )