Changing direction

[mistressnicci]

Ok so went to MK conference this weekend. Got a lot of inspiration and motivation, but I have a lot of work and changes in front of me. I have goals that I want, but I wonder if they are a little too big for my britches. I am motivated, but scared also. I want things that I am worried are too far out of my league. I know this is fear talking. But

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[hollowkatt]

I'm here for you and I know your teammates and your Directors are too!

I love you Nicci. You are the most dynamic and wonderful woman that I know and I KNOW you can do it!!!

Just remember that it's good to have it handy, but you probably won't need it! :)

[darkersunshine]

You know. I am excited that you and Katt got to hear a bit more about my story and see me from another perspective, but I REALLY kinda wish that there was a way for you to see the girl I was

Re: Just remember that it's good to have it handy, but you probably won't need it! :)

[quedquis]

Sunshine has the right message. There's an awesome counselor out there, Dr. David Burns, who wrote an excellent book called "Feeling Good: Mood Therapy." One of his points that has helped me over time is that "you are not your work," much as Sunshine said when she wrote, "You are NOT your goals or your accomplishments." I used to measure myself exactly in these terms: by the salary on my contract, by the accomplishments I had, and by the things I got done. What ended up happening, every time, was that I was just measuring the money I wasn't making, the things I had never accomplished, and by all the work that I still needed to do.

Random scene: Dana and I turning the corner in the hallway at Val Day, you coming out of the bathrooms--with the advertisements and business cards you were systematically leaving behind. I thought to myself, "She's serious."

You're committed, you are putting in the time--it will pay off. It's simply just a bunch of doing stuff until you get there.

[oliviassis]

How can I say this the correct way. We are all a screwy fucked up mess of cells and synapses. If I made a list like this I would likely set myself up to fail and be overly elated if I even finished ONE thing on the list on time. But I beat myself up in different ways. - YOU would turn to me and say "Jasmine you tard. I love you. Just set your head to it and let it all flow

[mistressnicci]

Grins and laughs lots!! Love you too Jaz!!!!!!!!

[darkersunshine]

HAHAHAHAHA! I love you! You basically said what I was trying to say only in WAAAAY better terms! :)

[hollowkatt]

Gotta Love Jas for that! She's got this "subtle" way with words.....(Unless you're sitting in a pavilion at Havoc... :D )