I hate may.  
Nana-Nana died.
Rather, the nursing home killed her.
That's what happens when you are given the wrong meds.
And your kidney's stop working.
You die.

I was named after her.
I loved her very much.
I will always miss her.
And never forget her.
She'll always be with me.

I feel lonely, helpless, and broken.  Something has just come over me.  I'm having a very bad I-miss-nick-so-much-that-I'm-going-to-sit-here-and-cry-on-my-laptop day.  I still can't get over the fact that he is gone.  You never know how much you're going to miss someone until you never see them again.  All I can picture is him, so cold in the ( Read more... )

I just have to say how wonderful it is to be at home and still in my jammies, even though it's 2 o'clock in the afternoon.  I've done nothing today. I can really get used to this.  I love being home because I am able to relax. and cook.  I made a pretty impressive gluten-free grilled cheese and tomato sandwich along with a very tasty ricotta pie.  ( Read more... )

I am done ( Read more... )

Just Some Quick Notes, in No Particular Order:

I still have mono.  It still sucks.
Prednisone is my friend.
I know i'm going to crash and burn tomorrow.
I've been doing rather well in my classes.
Suprisingly, things outside of classes are going well.
I may not have screwed things up forever.
Some people are absolutely amazing.
I feel amazing when I'm ( Read more... )

i think i might have ruined the only thing going for me.
i don't think i could live with myself if i did.

i just really need to talk to someone.
but it just wont happen.
i guess i don't deserve it.
i'm meant to be unhappy.

i have mono.
i want to rip my eyes out.

I am so stressed out with school, I can hardly stand it
my eyes are twitching
I'm not eating
I'm not sleeping

I don't know what to do with myself.

However, amongst all of this chaos there is a glimer of hope.
and that glimer is the only thing keeping me going.

I just found something out today.

I should be really upset, but I'm actually relieved.

There are far more important things in my life then dwelling on the person who only made me worse.

In other news, I buried my friend on my Birthday.

I will never forget him in that casket - so lifeless and cold.

He is in a much better place, and I can't wait ( Read more... )

my friend nicky medina died yesterday.  he flipped his car on airport road and went through the windshield.  died on scene.  he turned 24 last week.  i can't deal with this.  i loved him so much.  he was a great guy who always had a smile on his face.  he cared about everyone he knew ( Read more... )