I have this overwhelming urge to cry.

all I do is work...

yay to dom being in town tomorrow. I miss all of my good friends.

shits been pretty good lately. the majority of my time is spent working or sitting alone by myself or with aaron. yesterday was the first day I made over 50 dollars at Cheesecake factory. the day before that I made four. but yeah 100 bucks woohoo. fun stuff...I got a second job at delia's on wednesday. it should prove to be interesting. I think I' ( Read more... )

I think things will get better.

aaron and I talked last night. he admitted that hes been selfish lately and not spending enough time with me.

I think we'll be okay..

first night at the cheesecake factory was disastrous...enough said.

im a fucking mess right now.

alright that last entry I was little depressed while writing it. even though it was a little melodramatic it does pretty much sum up how Ive felt lately. I did my server tests today at cheesecake factory Im excited to start making money. with a corporate company that is well known there are so many consistent customers and the pricing is so high ( Read more... )

lately Ive been feeling inadequate.as if Im not good enough for anyone anymore..I dont really know where its coming from or why but I havent been feeling so happy about what im doing.I don't know how many times I wish I did things differently. how many times I think back and wish I had gone down a different path in high school, should have tried ( Read more... )

so...

I saw him tonight for a bit..he seems like hes getting better about things...he was in boone today and he bought me these glass earrings with little mushrooms in it. its one of the first thoughtful gifts hes given me and Im happy he was thinking about me.

hopefully everything will start getting better.

Im so frustrated with him right now. I dont know what is happening to our relationship but its going on a downward spiral.

I think things are working themselves out...

but if Im wrong Im wrong.

Im poor still...

thats all I got.

Chanty's cat Albie is adorable..hes pouncing on me as I type this.