I'm fucking depressed. I miss Jameson. I hate my job. and I'm so ready to get the hell out of charlotte.

fuckfuckfuckfuck.

I know this sounds emo but I don't even care. 2009 has officially been a shitty year and 2010 needs to hurry up and get here.

my pride is wounded. or maybe just my heart.

guess whos going to boston on the 25th!!!

MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMMEMEMEMEMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate it when Ive been drinking and I start to overanalyze life too much.overwhelming waves of drunken depression.

last night was awesome! Met up with Zach and walked over to EB's(where we as always ran into Richard)...We just sat,talked and drank all night and it was awesome! its so refreshing to talk to someone and know that they actually care what you have to say and are listening to you...zach and I just stayed up and talked all night after we left ebs and ( Read more... )

so I pick up the mandolin 2 days ago and Ive already got an offer to be in a band..

guess I better try to get better hah

I finished moving into the new apartment. its pretty awesome other than the fact they havent quite finished my room. but it doesnt matter because apparently we are moving to another studio space sometime soon anyway.

Today wasn't such a bad day.

aaron and I broke up today...

im kind of depressed..............

I talked to my grandparents earlier about moving to new york. as boring as it is I think I may do it just to spice things up..I won't be moving until the summer and its going to be far upstate but I kind of want to be closer to NYC. I think I may try and see if this modeling thing would work for me. I think Im unique looking enough and tall enough ( Read more... )

life has been pretty hectic lately. I believe Ill be out of this house on rollins fairly soon and honestly Im really looking forward to it. I really feel uncomfortable and unwanted here.IDk...Im not really sure about what Im going to do about aaron. Ive been thinking about this for so long and I dont want to make a rash decision unless Im ( Read more... )