Things are still good. High fives all around. Apparently college life is depressing and growing up, while not being as exciting as college, is a lot more fulfilling. Keep fartin you buttholes.

I don't know how long it has been since my last entry but I know it has been long enough for me to not need to post here to LJ. I used to only use this site to vent when I was drunk and slightly depressed but now I get to write on it when content, accomplished, respected, and loved. I guess looking back on things, I would tell myself to be patient ( Read more... )

Short entry, I have a good job where I am revered, I have an AMAZING girlfriend who I met as a byproduct of clinicals in college. I live without want and need. Something worth making you life worth living will always come to you. I am content. Have a reflective day.

Two years. Two years is apparently how long it takes for me to realize how fast I grow, mature, change, lose, gain, and miss all that I have. I am successful in my career, I make good money, I have lost weight, I look good, girls talk to me before I talk to them, yet I still feel like I am the same person I was 10 years ago. I want and need to have ( Read more... )

I ranted a lot over the years and now that I look back I didn't have much to rant about. I mean sure, I was sincere in the things that I said but for the most part I let them get to me more than they should have, just as this newest ordeal has. The ordeal being a woman, a woman I care about more than I care to admit but nonetheless a woman which ( Read more... )

For so many years I have dreamed of being on my own and professional but these days I realize that I am more empty in my happiness than ever. I AM proud of myself for making it where I am today but despite all of my accomplishments I feel like I have gone nowhere. All of my friends are gone, the ones I am left with feel like scraps left around to ( Read more... )

I confess that this may be the most sober that I have ever written anything on here before but at least I still have some booze still kicking in me. I have a hard time coming to their realization of things but I think that most things are forcing their way into that part of my brain that interprets what reality is. Its sad and its hard but it is ( Read more... )

Im not in a bad place right now but i feel stale. I feel as if i cant move forward or backwards and to be honest im kind of numb to it. Perhaps im overshadowed by my previous feelings but i still miss good times. Good times are something of a rarity these days but when i have some sort of reason to creat new good times, the only thing i can think ( Read more... )

So there is this girl that i used to date. To make a long story short, we kind of grew apart more so on my part for reasons that are respectable(no career ambition etc, etc) well anyway, she recently jumped back into my life and i realize i still have feelings for her but now she has a boyfriend and career ambitions, so now im stuck in the middle ( Read more... )

For fucks sake, i have waited a long god damn time to let someone into my life that i had feelings for, and the second i let them in she decides to show me that she is nothing more than any other girl i have avoided up to till this point. She was attractive, sweet, good sense of humor, and smart, but evidently im not good enough for those traits as ( Read more... )