Comments | misshapen_fro: facebook blah

misshapen_fro

facebook blah

May 12, 2010 23:02

Looking at my Facebook always makes me depressed. I rarely ever go there, and when I do it just feels like I'm rubbing my nose in the fact that I lost pretty much every good friend I ever had between the ages of 18 and 23 when I was so horribly depressed that I just kind of fell off everyone's radar because I was too busy crying and sleeping and ( Read more... )

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breakableheart May 13 2010, 03:36:22 UTC

You know, depression isn't a choice. It's not like you decided to be sick. You wouldn't beat yourself up if you had diabetes. If they can't/won't care anymore then maybe their importance is done in your life. You needed each other at that time, now you need something else.

Be gentle with yourself.

misshapen_fro May 13 2010, 04:46:41 UTC

Yes, I know. I really know that I didn't choose this and I shouldn't blame myself, but it's hard not to.

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misshapen_fro May 13 2010, 04:13:44 UTC

Yeah, you're probably right. I don't really want to delete it, though, because then I won't have a way to contact all these people who mostly only make me feel like a big failure.

grunald May 13 2010, 04:27:24 UTC

i say hi on aim all the tiiiiime

misshapen_fro May 13 2010, 04:29:52 UTC

lol, I'm not talking about you, silly. :)

wendykh May 13 2010, 04:41:33 UTC

I care about you a LOT Melissa, for many reasons I could detail if I know it's a private filter or whatever. You've been through a hell or three (ahem) no woman should go through. I'm amazed you can get out of bed. I love you and hope I never lose touch with you!

misshapen_fro May 13 2010, 04:44:40 UTC

Thank you, Wendy. I love you, too. You've always been really supportive and I don't know if I've ever actually said it, but it means a lot to me.

I'm kind of amazed I can get out of bed, too, lol. It's funny, a lot of the time I feel like I got so sick because I'm weak, but then I remember everything that I've been through and I realize that I must actually be pretty strong, because I think it would have totally destroyed a lot of people.

mistressemi May 13 2010, 10:46:27 UTC

I know how you feel. Sometimes you just need to worry about the people who do bother to comment because they are worth keeping in your life. I take a lot of hits where my family is when it comes to FB, but certain friends make up for it.