I have been so busy and doing other things, I completely forgot about LJ! So, even though I doubt anyone reads it, I'm updating for my behalf. Mainly cuz I've been so stressed out, but also again, because I need to vent. About what? Haha what is it always? boys. Two in particular. One being Paul. Who I've known since I was what, 19? 20? Geez... it ( Read more... )

Well it seems that Paul doesn't want a relationship. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with that info.. but, it still seems like he enjoys hanging out with me and stuff.. I don't know. I guess maybe I'm hoping it'll develop into something, but one never knows. I guess I'll just enjoy this while it lasts, take one day at a time and hope I don't get ( Read more... )

Alright, so I get rid of the jerk.. yes, I do still have feelings for him, but I'm working through that.. but I had started seeing Paul. Paul who I thought was maybe interested in a relationship with me, but no.. turns out he's not. So we were talking last night.. there's more he wants to talk about I guess or he just didn't have the time to say ( Read more... )

WOOHOOO!!!!!!!!!! I'm seriously doing a happy dance right now.. I finally got the courage to erase him from everything in my life (facebook included!) and tell him to fuck off. So, he started messaging me and stuff.. I told him flat out to piss off and fuck off a couple times, he kept writing me.. said we could end this civilly.. etc etc.. I'm like ( Read more... )

Nights have been hard lately. Not because of my kitty (got him Tuesday) but because Lee told me that he's in love with me. Yeah. So how the hell am I supposed to deal with this? Whenever I start to really try to move on and get over him, he pops up again with stuff like this. I don't know if he actually means it or not, it's so hard to know ( Read more... )

Nothing really exciting happening to me lately.. been hanging out a lot with Rob and Basheer.. those guys are hilarious. They're so much fun, I enjoy hanging out with them. I've known them (literally, face to face) for.. just under 2 weeks now.. and it feels like I've known them forever. It's nice. I think I'm really starting to make some good ( Read more... )

Alright, so didn't do anything friday as I work saturday mornings (pfftt) and saturday after work my parents came, bringing me furniture. So we spent saturday taking things apart, putting others together and generally making my flat more adult-oriented instead of thrown-together-mishmash oriented. And it does look a LOT better. A lot more put ( Read more... )

So, a friend of mine (suzee) has decided that I need to meet her friend Jeremy. Who happens to be a cop. So, I had on my MSN "do I want to date a cop".. turns out Lee is very much against the idea. Says if I'm dating a cop, then we're over. Which is kinda funny cuz I thought we were over a while ago as he never replied to my emails. Anyways.. told ( Read more... )

So, he sorta kinda talked to me today.. same as usual.. couple words and then "poof" gone. So, I gave him some attitude. :) I'm proud of myself, not for being a bitch, I wasn't. But for showing him hat I'm fine without him. I don't need him. So.. even though I may love him (ish, yes I used the word love) I CAN and WILL survive without him ( Read more... )

Alright. So I told him we're friends.. if he wants to try a relationship again to let me know, but I can't sit here and wait for him. Holy shit this is one of the hardest things I've ever done. Ha, I'll prolly say that about something else, but right now this is so hard for me to function. I don't know how I'm gonna work. I really hope I'm busy ( Read more... )