i'm sitting here depressed, choked up and on the erge to cry. Honestly i'm about to cry and i dont know why at all. I hate christmas so much, it's just one of those many infamous days in the year where something bad goes wrong and you want to avoid it. I'm at the computer desk in my room, my hands shaking horribly, and they are out there opening ( Read more... )

i dont want much really

i got a car that im currently paying on, i just want this

1. Halloween *Rob Zombie's Unrated Directors Cut

and

2. A Girlfriend

i feel like writing a little today. I really dont have much to say though cause nothing's really going wrong at the moment. Things seem fine and i hope they stay the same for a while now. Well the other day i made my second payment on my car. $170 bucks, then here pretty soon my insurance is $200. Yeah it's crazy. Also, the band has been talking ( Read more... )

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whats the point anymore, ya know. So busy with work for the majority of the time. Got all the time in the world for anything else. Of course i talk about myself that is. I dont think i will ever get to tell the one i desire how i feel.

it hurts.

revenge never tasted any sweeter i must say. But then again it's not exactly Revenge, how deviant that word really is. You can feel the power when it rolls off your lips. A smooth feeling of ecstasy. For those who may be wondering, no i'm not dating the girl in the picture below. She is beautiful if i may add. But, it's a work in progress ( Read more... )

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i wish i could go home. Not the home so many of you are used to though. The home where you feel free of all fear, prejudice, and anger in the world. Not heaven and death of course. Just the state of escaping from everything. I'm driving myself up the walls with this band anymore. I'm on the urge of quiting one last time for good. This band has been ( Read more... )

i got called out tonight at practice by my own band member...what a disappointment, i swear. Pretty much Greg got on subject about the band needing to be serious again. Well the last time we was serious it went to hell and back. He just wants money and fame, thats how we all feel. I told him if we do it to be serious again it will end up like it ( Read more... )

ok, for some of those who have seen it. my dad built a pretty decent sized shed in our backyard. He decided that he's going to build on to it more. Well the other day he found a bar table like you would find at a...bar...anyway I decided well id like to buy some recording equipment for myself and only myself. My dad said well hell buy the recording ( Read more... )