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[miseryintruder]

Today was pretty much a decent day. I didn't get to go to my appt. About the apartment which made me a little upset but made another appt for next week. She said it was no biggie. Things happen. Which is true

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[wednes]

My dear, the fact that you would post this makes me suspect that you want someone to advise you. Let me then advise you to get yourself to a reputable therapist right freakin' now. You are long overdue for some perspective on your life if you have even fleeting thoughts about ending it, or wanting to.

So the next time I see a post from you, I want it to tell me when your therapy appointment is. And dress cute for it, it will make you feel better.

You Want to O.D.?

[tenderloinrose]

Melissa this suicide theme seems to be coming up a lot for you. I understand that you don't think you really are going to do it, but you do seem to have the beginnings of a plan, and that is not a good sign. I would second the motion that you may want to start seeing a therapist (or, if you already see one, talk to him/her about how you are feeling; if that doesn't help look for a new therapist, maybe?) Just worried about you; even if you don't commit suicide, these kind of thoughts can trigger other self-destructive behavior. I think we both know about self-destructive behavior and the pain it can cause. Anyway, hugs, and I will send you good energy. K.

Re: You Want to O.D.?

[miseryintruder]

Wednesday,

You always seem to know how to cheer me up and make me smile. I am trying to take your advice. I promise I am making an effort!

About dressing cute.. yes that does make it 100 percent better. Especially if you just put on make-up but with dressing nice it just sets everything off nicely. I have to agree. I think maybe I should have a dress up day for myself sometime. Then go out and have fun. Sounds excellent!

Hope everything is going well with you darling! I wish I could meet you in person DAMMIT! Weeeeee's need to PARTEEEEE! HARDWEEE!

Ms

Re: You Want to O.D.?

[miseryintruder]

What in whe world just happened lol! I cam confused. Well this one is for you K. I apprecitate you sending me some good energy. I need as much as I can get actually

[leanasidhe]

sometimes when i am stressed/depressed, i fantasize about hurting myself. i don't do it (i stopped doing that a few years ago), but the thought calms me down. i asked my therapist about it and she said that it's not bad to fantasize about it b/c it IS calming and it's a form of control...but that i should try to focus myself in other directions. thought i'd share this with you. *hugs*

[miseryintruder]

I am glad that you did Erin. It actually made me think and I appreciate your comment. It does calm down for me but then it hits me like your frickin moron what are you THINKING???!?!?!?!

I am glad that you don't hurt yourself anymore! yOU ARE a wonderful person and soooon to be MARRRRRIEDDDDD. *squeel* Just remember that I am there in spirit!! A ching ching ching on the glass *kiss! kiss! kiss!* oh just to prepare you. LOL get you ready. I am sooooooooooooooo happy for you! IWish you guys the best EVER! Don't forget to POST THE PICS!

*hugs you back*