you know what reallysucks? when you are talking to a great friend and suddenly they drop off. it sucks!! youre talking and talking and talking and suddenly BAM!! they're gone.... it's sad. I was talking to Caroline and that happened. gr. i hate how that happens :( oh well life goes on.

alone......again.....goodbye

so obviously im not dead, just slightly scared. the fact that im not dead is thanx in large part to Haley. thankyou haley. you'll never know how much it meant to me. i would also like to thank ryan, cat, and tyrone. thats all for now

I'll be dead by morning. remember me not

Haley i need your help...i think i've only got maybe a week left.....help

so yeah...another mediocre day spent watching movies and hanging with friends...oh yeah, and finals...what a bore!!! ok here's the day ( Read more... )

well, i managed to get my defenses up again. everyhting is ok because now things are hidden again. it works really well. My horoscope said that i will have a blossoming relationship. PHT yeah right. me! in a relationship. anyway, im really happy for Ry and Haley. they're so happy together, it's practically sickening. unfortunately it still causes ( Read more... )

things are slowly leaving me. now my best friend is gone. now who will i talk to? now who do i turn to...but he's happy. i cant take that from him. i shouldnt and i wont. he is still my best friend and i want him to be happy...im happy that he's happy. i wish i could be that happy...now all i have is myself. i turn to myself...that doesnt help. i ( Read more... )

Now what? he's happy. shes happy. she happy too. and what am i? alone...still...forever...now what? why cant i find happiness when everyone else is? why? why? why? so what now?

Why do i feel so lonely when i have so many friends? why do i feel so lost when my friends all rock so much? why do i feel like i have nowhere to go? why do i feel second rate? why do i feel like im alone in such a crowd of familiers? why do i feel so sad when i should feel so happy? why did this "natural high" die after only a few hours? Why ( Read more... )