hello. hello.

this keeps happening.

a girl. a boy. a girl. a girl.

I keep breaking them, see. Picking at a part till it snaps because I know exactly how.

he is lying. next to. behind. close to. me ( Read more... )

are you still broken? sometimes my sticky tape peels away and i have to pat it down again before anyone notices. im tired now because i work 50plus hours a week.
im tired now because theres someone i love and he requires my smiles and kisses and laughter to breath and i love him so i give him those things and work 50plus hours a week. 
im tired now ( Read more... )

I don't want your hugs or your I missed you. I dont want your arm round my fucking shoulders. I am not anyone you want to know and Im not who you'd like me to be so take your fucking pity and get out of my face. Im angry that it even registers.

The movie on your eyelids is no reflection of myself.

I got an email today from that mannish child.

Hello you,
I was going to get some help with writing this letter to you, all poetic and stuff but you would see right through it, so I haven't.
I hope you are ok and doing well.
True love is twisted love, and a man in love isn't a senceable man. The ( Read more... )

I saw some friends last night. Ones I haven't seen in ages. Jen, whose father died recently, is lovely. But she's jumpy and tries too hard to be ok. Tries too hard to be funny and interesting and positive. She's going to crack soon ( Read more... )

insist on putting me in a box, and i will run further away.

after watching an episode of csi or law & order- one of the two- my mother has decided that i am probably bi-polar. it satisfies her to find a cause. it upsets me that after all the doctors, therapists, psychiatrists and psychologists, its a television show that gets her attention. upset is ( Read more... )

Went to the tup last night with tom under the ruse of wanting to play pool. Well, tom wanted the pool, I wanted to see who was there.
Irish, V and M. Interesting. Didn't talk to Irish much, instead I drank tequilia.
Life doesn't go very far does it.

I was going to write a lengthy commentary.
Detail my day. Assess. Discuss.
Huh.

and she cried and she criedSeriously what the fuck is up with that ( Read more... )