Need To

[minbymin]

I need to cry so badly but I cant. I cant because it's such a weak thing and I told myself not to be weak because every single time Im weak I binge. So I havent cried since last month. Okay. So I want to cry but I wont. Next

Comments

[geekers112]

your comment really made my day.....

i read it and just knowing that i wasnt alone in how i felt made me feel i guess " normal" ... or as close to normal as i can

i cleaned my whole apartment and now its perfect... just like i wanna be ...

do you have aim? we could chat sometime

<3

[minbymin]

I dont have aim : [
I have yahoo messenger and hotmail messenger only.

And I'm glad that you feel the same way at the same time that Im so sorry you have to feel the same way.
Because it's such a sad thing that we can't perform the simplest of things such as expressing ourselves- like crying.

And the thing is........you know that really gay quote of like "out of the darkness comes a little light" ?? It's so true because I believe so strongly that we can do this. I believe that I can do it and if I can, you can too : ) And that gives me a little glimmer of hope.Just knowing that soon we will be really close to being perfect.
xoxo

Wow

[mykabebe]

I feel very much like that... like I have some potential inside of me that could never be seen unless I am thin enough to be noticed and appreciated... I hate that feeling like "Look at me! I am doing well!" but it's like I can't be heard unless I am skinny.... I have to be skinny.... I am trapped in my own body... a prisoner...

Re: Wow

[minbymin]

Yeah definitely. Like..... I'm so sorry you feel like a prisoner hun : [
I know how you feel to have that potential inside and I feel like I can't even begin to show it until I'm thin. Like....I cant begin to get straight A's until I'm 100 pounds. And I cant begin to get on all sports teams until I'm super thin. It just makes sense. I get thin, people notice, and then I start to excel. That's what I want.
good luck hun. xxx

[jesuis_faible]

I know EXACTLY what you mean. =/

[rosafleisch]

i have the same prob with college and such i tried twice, had to drop out both times... and it really annoys me, because i was always a straight a student, and now i cant stay in education at all.. my brain is mush lol. plus its like really hard to do when you have such problems as we do. anyway i just want to say that i have hope for the future even though im stuck in this hole right now, i hope you can find that hope too

[minbymin]

thanks hun. I know that just because you have hope...you'll get somewhere.

I here that the first step to making progress is believing. So good luck babe xxxxx

p.s. is that you in tht pic??? Im so jealous. xx

[rosafleisch]

yeah i half arsed believe it... its so hard tho. ive been in my house so many years (agoraphobia) so most of the time i lack hope. but i try. so thats good. and i hope you can get there too. xxx

and do you mean my pic? if so yeah thats me. thankyou tho i dont see why youre jealous :o

[minbymin]

You have an original look.
I just look like an average piece of lard youd see on the street.
You are really pretty though : )