Life sucks right now, so I'm ranting about it.

[millionminds]

My stress level has reached its peak, I think. .___. So I really need to vent. Feel free to disregard this. I'm honestly just trying to get some stress off my chest, since my panic attacks are coming back on a daily fucking basis and I found myself thinking some not-so-pleasant things this morning

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[feeniebeanie]

Call me if you want to hear a voice.

[millionminds]

You know what? I think I will. <3 I'll send you a call tomorrow sometime, how 'bout that? ^^ There's a little too much going on tonight to call, but I'll hit you up tomorrow. Thank you for your concern. <3

[feeniebeanie]

Seeing as how I'm still a student, rofl, I'll give you a layout of my Friday schedule.

7:55 - Peer Counseling
9:00 - Free
10:05 - Free
11:10 - Free
12:15 - Lunch/Free
12:55 - English
2:00 - French

I rather you called in that huge chunk of time (NO MORE HP HISTORY WHOOOO! I HAVE A SECOND AGAIN!); as I don't want to wind up telling you: "Bruh, I'm on the bus. Some kid's sellin' weed and I can't hear shit. Talk to you later." xD PST btw.

[feeniebeanie]

*fail* I forgot. I have English M-W and History Th-F. So that should be History for fifth period.

[millionminds]

I'm working on my reply right now. ^^

[millionminds]

To the second message, I mean. xD Considering we also have the roleplay, which I am also working on.

[nekocrouton]

I know what you mean about AIM stressing you out. Hence, why I'm not on it very often. Or any of the other IM services I have. I dick around a lot online as it is, and AIM/Yahoo!/MSN just adds to it. O_o

I feel you on the whole debt issue, though. I was in about, oh, $25,000 worth of debt myself at one point. >_> But it wasn't because I was jobless or anything, it was because I was spending WAY beyond my means, buying everything that I wanted to buy. I really am a spoiled brat when it comes to certain things. I had a credit card that I kept from him, and was building up debt on it like no one's business. Luckily, my husband bailed me out, I feel so fortunate to have him. He could have just told me "fuck you" and left me to deal with it myself. Especially since it was technically under his name. Yeah... I could have fucked up his credit too. ORZ I'm a terrible person, really.

You can call me or text me if you like? (704) 502-0213 You don't have to, but I'm just throwing it out there. ^_^ *hugs*

[millionminds]

I don't blame you, yo. xD Messengers have so much spam potential, it's scary. .___. I stayed away from them until I met a couple people online in the Resident Evil fandom. Dunno how I STAYED on AIM. xD But I'm still friends with them, so I couldn't just up and leave, I guess.

Oh, wow. ;_____; Your husband must be amazing. Sounds like you're really lucky to have him. Though it also doesn't sound like you didn't learn anything from it, either. You just don't know what you have until something like that happens.

I don't call a lot of people because of minutes and all, but I do have unlimited texting. You don't mind if I add you to my contacts, do you?

Thanks for your concern, dearie! <3 -hugs-

[nekocrouton]

Yeah, I'm pretty lucky to have my husband. ^_^;; He loves me and I love him. I won't do that again. O_o Although I'm still a bit spoiled. He kind of spoils me, though. Heh. But it'll never get to that extreme again.

Sure, I don't mind if you add me to your contacts. ^_^ I have unlimited texting as well. :D

[millionminds]

So long as you know your limits now, I don't think it hurts to be spoiled. We all deserve a little treat every now and then, after all. xD

Awright. 8D Thanks!

[clethena]

*tight hug*

I'm here, Twin, if you wanna talk. I've had my own share of personal troubles lately and it's no fun road to travel..

[millionminds]

-hugs back-

Of course, Twin. ;____; You know the same goes for you, right? I still love you even if I've been a horrible friend lately.

[clethena]

Love you too <3

I seriously need to start staying in touch with you more. From now on I'm only focusing on those friendships that are real and drama-free 'cause I've had enough of that s**t.

[millionminds]

Amen to that, yo. <333 Times are tough right now, and we all really need people who stick by us. I'm always here for you. 8D

[m_aenea]

:( oh, i'm sorry.

having recently pulled out of a similar situation (loads of debt related to school & credit card bills, hiring woes, etc.) and with nearly all of my college friends in the same boat...you're not alone.

unfortunately there is not much i can say except to hang in there, and that so much of what has happened is not your fault, even if sometimes it's hard to believe that.

i wish i could offer some more constructive help. :( on the job front, maybe team_unemployed might be useful? it's a general community where you can ask questions about job searching, getting unemployment benefits or school aid, application help...lots of things. I have not used it personally but some of my friends have - even if you don't have any specific questions, lots of people just post rants about the unfairness of the job searching process which can be very cathartic.

in any case, i hope things start looking up for you soon.

[millionminds]

Thank you dearie. <3 Thank you. I really appreciate your concern, and I wish your college friends the best of luck, because holy shit, I wouldn't wish this kind of stress on any good person. .___. I really hope they pull out of it too. ^^

Oh hey, I didn't even think to come to LJ about the job market. O: Wow, this place is...just amazing. Thank you so much for the link! <333

Thanks so much for everything!