The reason this hurts the most, is because this was my story. This is how it was supposed to happen to me. That is how my heart works. And now, I will not get this story. Because this was everything my dreams were made of. ALL OF IT. And I have to watch it go to someone else. And I have nothing except watching my dreams being lived by someone else ( Read more... )

why are we attracted to stupid people? why are the ones who are clearly not good for us the ones we want the most?

U.G.H. Pretty sure the only thing I've learned is that I have to work through this, which totally sucks because you have to feel it all....... I was fine until I saw you at the smallest Dunkin Donuts on EARTH!& close to my house which is not close to you! and I didn't figure you remembered me because I've seen you twice on campus where you've ( Read more... )

what, are we full circle again? Just a few weeks ago we were at 180, now we’re back to 360? Seriously?! Am I really that unimportant that you can’t look at me anymore? It hurts more than I ever thought it would. Although, I must be honest, I didn’t think we’d go back to this. I thought it was over. Guess the joke’s on me. yay. I don’t understand ( Read more... )

I'm not gonna lie. I get tired of being alone all the time. I just want to be wanted by someone. who has God's heart.

When God made you He must have been thinking about me.

God, I need you more than ever. I desperately need guidance beyond a doubt. I need to hear from you. I am seeking you, let me find you.

am i finally feeling things? 

Do you ever wonder if God just looks down at you and laughs? I mean, not in a mean, condescending way but more in an amused way. Does He ever just shake His head at me-wondering when I will ever learn? Looking back on my posts I can see how much I have grown. I can see how I was wrong & how God's plan worked out differently than I had imagined ( Read more... )

i cant get my tumblr or live journal to work on my phone. im at work, also, so that goes to show how I need to vent.

I am truly overwhelmed. And very humbled. this is someone whom I have respected and admired for his faith and trust in God. and I am very humbled and overwhelmed by God that He should leave this at my doorstep. I have prayed for this ( Read more... )