Neglecting LJ is a sign of mental stability

[mick_hale]

Looking back on my prior entries, of which the last one was in February, it seems as though most of my entries in the past year have been to whine and bitch about my fractured mental state. Which means that it's not a good sign that I'm posting again

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[stone_]

Dunno if this is helpful, but I can tell you of some of my experiences with Ritalin.

I'm in the habit of detoxing every weekend since I don't take Ritalin on Friday/Shabbat. I used to also avoid coffee, but I've since retracted that to prevent me being a total ass. Every so often I do crash when I've been on twice daily doses for extended periods, and I need to take an early night. I'm feeling that way right now, frakking exhausted.

And I have a day, about once every other month, where I give Lorien warning "I'm going to be an asshole today, I'm really sorry in advance. Saying sorry won't make up for it, but I can feel that I'm going to be a awful person today." I'm short tempered, whiny, unhelpful, unhappy, filled with self-loathing, and a general pain in the ass. It typically lasts one day, but it sounds similar...

Anyhoo, that's just my experience, in my not-quite-as-crazy land.

[mick_hale]

The nice thing about Concerta is that I can take it without having to worry about too hard a crash, but either way, given my other fragile mental state, I've just been taking everything daily - if anything, especially Friday and Shabbat since those are the days I actually spend with my family. Since we recently identified my afternoon crash, an extra dose of Ritalin around 4pm should mean I'm less of a dick to my wife and kids. We've yet to try that, since that suggestion was given around the same time as the current serotonin crash.

Basically, my brain is going all BSOD on me right now, and I'm trying to hack away at the problem with even more pills. We'll see how this goes.

[cogitationitis]

Gee, and I was recently wondering how you were doing. Not so well, I see. Sorry to hear it.

[mick_hale]

I'm not doing that poorly, considering how I was last year around this time. This post was mainly brought on by a major screw-up with my meds. The last few months have been a bit of a rollercoaster as I stabilize, then something changes.