Hey It's been a while! since i haven't written to you i've been over at my mom's hanging out with Dan and i got my lip pierced! yay! so i have been pretty busy!

Last night was the coolest! Dan came over and he brought his guitars and amp and played for me! he was great! and i got my report card and it was good and now i can get my peircing!!!!! i couldn't believe i did so good on my report card! yay! This kicks ass!!!!:)

I just read the greatest e-mail that Ryan ever sent me!!!!!! he said that he loved me and he really meant it!!!!!! that is so sweet! i read that part of the e-mail and i started crying!!!:) that is so fucking sweet!:) i love him so much! i'm glad he's my friend!

I don't know what's going on with me! I 'm all of a sudden depressed again!!:( I hate this. Dan feels horrible because i'm in physical and emotional pain! and he really likes me and i'm trying to be not depressed but i can't help it! i'm so tired! i need professional help!

Last night me and Ryan got into a huge fight on the internet! he was pissed because i never told him about me going out with Dan. I was accusing him of being jealous, but he said he wasn't! 2 hrs. later he decided to tell me why he acted like that! he said it was because he doesn't like the fact that i'm dating someone he doesn't know because it ( Read more... )

what a day! I'm going to the movies tomorrow with Dan, Max, Christine, and Dustin! Ryan was gonna go but he canceled!:( I wish he'd go but like i said he always puts things off until "tomorrow"! it pisses me off but hey what can i do!?!Later.

I had a really depressing night last night! Thinking about my friends and the one's i worry about most! I really miss Ryan! my life is all fucked up and i'm wicked confused! HELP!!!!!!:(

What a summer vacation!!!! I have a new boyfriend and he's great!!!!!:) But i miss my friend Ryan i haven't seen him in a while! hopefully i'll see him soon!