How could I forget about the things that happen when I let my emotions take control of me?? Now someone has been sucked into the craziness and it's all my fault! He's going to end up hurt just like me.

I need to be medicated. So that I don't hurt anyone with my words.

I'm scared of myself. 

3 Libras, by A Perfect Circle

Threw you the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name in your recollection
Down among a million, say:
Difficult enough to feel a little bit
Disappointed, passed over.
When I've looked right through,
To see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me

Well I threw you the obvious,
Just to see if there's more behind the
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Out of controol!
Sometimes a man justs wants tosee the world be destroyed.
I am GOD
I AM GOD
No, not really, 
we are all gods
we are all forgetoon gods.
aybe SELLF IMPROVEMENT IS NPOT THE ANSEWER
MAYBW self destructiob is the answer
i am nit drunk i swera
i aven't ha a drop of alchol since last night
no motivation whatsoever

i am godd
i just haevn't realized my ( Read more... )

All these fucking people I know are liked more than I am. I know I have problems, but I save them for here, tell them to Alice, or bottle them up inside instead of showing anyone else I know that they exist. So why the fuck does everyone I know like other people more than me? What is unlikeable about me, excluding the part, of course, that I don't ( Read more... )

I have problems. I have an extremely highly addictive personality. This made worse by my biggest problem.

If I'm not doing something risky or illegal or terrifying or otherwise nutso, I get depressed. Maybe it's not Depression, maybe it's mood dysphoria, I'm not sure, but I get those feelings of hopelessness that I had in high school and my ( Read more... )

Is everything an illusion? Is it all created by my brain? If so, can I control what happens? If not, who created it and how can I regain control? Does it justify anything I might do? If nothing is real, then there is no morality, and I can do whatever I want because it doesn't matter in the first place.

All I know is what I'm told. I base what I ( Read more... )

I have one moral: the golden rule, and I really only follow it, like, half the time, maybe. Without that, what am I? Maybe a Satanist, but that's organized religion, which I hate.  Either way, I'm not a likable person.

Some days I'm pretty sure I'm Obsessive Compulsive, but then I doubt because I don't think I'm anxious enough. Here are some of the ( Read more... )

http://www.violentacres.com/archives/59/two-phrases-that-destroyed-american-culture

Go to it!

What is your strongest emotion?
Your Result: Jealousy

It appears and jealousy and the want to have what you can't have is your strongest emotion. You will do whatever it takes to get what you want or make happens as long as it benefits you.
Greed

Fear

Hate/Anger

Love/Happiness

Sadness

Guilt/Regret

Lust/Attention Whore

What is your strongest emotion?
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 My mother broke down today. She said she's sick of me being the way I am. She went on and on, tears rolling down her face and I just stared at her, then my father glared at me and told me I should go to my room. Whatever, I read some and stared at my computer, pissed that I couldn't get internet access. What I knew would happen has finally come to ( Read more... )