My last entry was over 2 years ago. My world is completely different. I am engaged and getting married this year. I'm back to living in Youngstown. Same Job. I was so ready to take on the world and be happy about everything. Then 2013 happened. The worst year I can ever remember. So many bad things happened I can not even recount them all. I ( Read more... )

i deserve to be happy. why can't i accept that?

I need to stop thinking that the fairytale in my head is ever going to happen. I was that happy once, but it was short lived, and I ruined it. I should just accept just being content.

I kind of find it hilarious that for the past few months I have been consistent when I have posted.

At somepoint in the past year or so I've loved the idea of having a baby. It scares the shit out of me. Part of me is totally against it. I want to work and be able to take care of myself. If I have a baby, I wouldn't want it to be in daycare all the time. So either I give up all I've worked for, or I need to find a guy willing to be a stay at ( Read more... )

sometimes i wish i had a diary with a lock that i could trust...

I have no idea how my life will end up. for being so sure he was the one for me, I was way the off. awesome guy, but not for me. Worth the shot for sure. No regrets ( Read more... )

yes... this will work just fine :)

I am now dating a fantastic boy that I have liked on and off for the past 7 years. Timing never worked out till now. I'm loving this, it's working out perfectly. I am so happy right now.

not that anyone cares.... but my life is pretty fantastic right now.

that is all. :)