i am down on myself lately ( Read more... )

Dear life,

2 job apps down, 18 to go :)

Dear life,

Why do you toss me for these dips and dooeys? I just want life to be straight-forward and awesome. I don't know what is supposed to happen next, and I don't like the uncertainty. :/

Love, Meghan

I think all my problems may be anxiety related. And by all my problems I mean all the problems I seem to have when there is absolutely nothing I have in my life to complain about. When EVERYTHING is practically perfect, and I feel like crying, I think it's anxiety. I don't understand why.

It's frustrating!

I am so sick of fake people. I hate being used. I hate being a friend of convenience. I'm kinda honestly bummed about it, it kind of sucks.

I just want real fucking friends for crying out loud.

I think this is why I can't get over Jordan. He's the only one who I feel has ever been completely real with me. Ha.

BLAH

I am afraid that what we did today is going to make us fall back in love (not that either of us ever fell out. I think that's the problem here ( Read more... )

So today I went over to Jordan's. We talked about how weird our entire situation is. We both agree our relationship was unlike anything else-anytime either one of us meets someone all we think is how much BETTER our relationship was. I really feel like there is slim to no chance I'll have as great a connection with anyone else ( Read more... )

i am super duper excited for chicago!

i am not so super duper to take my exam in the morning!

i quit facebook and every time i have an urge to reactivate, i am going to come and write something in my livejournal... starting about 5 minutes ago.

IT'S HARD! facebook is legit addicting. it's a sickness.

Dear Meghan,

You WILL survive the night.

Love, yourself.

i certainly hope no one reads this anymore since it is becoming more of a personal journal than an update on life journal!

448 midterm in the morning ahhhhhhhhhh yiyiyiyiyi

lifeeeeeeee ... yeee