There is something wrong with me.

Dear You,

I wish I could tell you everything that I truely wanted to. 
But I know that would be too much to handle.
Why can't you just see that this could be so good for the both of us.
I can't even begin to tell you how much you mean to me.
It's incredible how much I fall for you more and more each day.
Why do things have to be so difficult.

Life life, ( Read more... )

Ahh, what a night.
We went camping.
It was Gena, Mike, Olie and me.
After being terrified for almost an hour, I enjoyed myself.
It rained, that was fun.

The past week has been fun and crappy at the same time.
I'm having a lot of fun.
I've been with Gena and Anthony a lot.

But I have been realizing a lot of things, too.
Ohh well.

I'm exhausted.
I'm going to ( Read more... )

Today was better than yesterday.
I'm starting to like this.

A lot.

:o]

Tonight was great.
I had a lot of fun.

I've already done some things on my goal list.
I hungout with Gena, Anthony, Dan, Matt and Olie tonight.
Thats five people I haven't hungout with in a while.
But we'll count them as one :o]
One group.

Woo!

I have goals for summer.
And if I don't accomplish these goals before it ends, I will be depressed.

1. Hangout with at least 5 people that I haven't hungout with for a while.
2. Find a hobby.
3. Get a decent tan.
4. Find me a boyyy.
5. Try something new.

That's not asking too much.

:o]

It's 2:40, and I haven't done anything productive all day.
I love it.
Ohh how I love summer.

Things are better.
Just a little better.
I'm still kind of sick of certain things.
But whatever, I'll suck it up.

North Carolina in 12 days.
I'm so excited.
sldkfslfdk!

Yepp :]

Today was better than yesterday I guess.
It's still not over.
I need to get out of this town.

14 more days.
I absolutly can't wait.
I'm going to be so happy there.

I'm thinking about going to college in North Carolina.
For what? 
Not sure yet.

I think I'm gaining weight.
Thats no fun.
I may start running.
Pfff.
Or not.

Tomorrow I plan on waking up before 2.
I ( Read more... )

I'm sick of this.
Being ditched.
Being lied to.

I hate this.
Absolutly hate it.

I just want things to be normal again.
I want everything to go back.

Why did this have to happen?

EDIT: I'm not happy anymore.
This isn't like me.
I don't like me anymore.
It has nothing to do with other people.
It's all me.
I'm not mad at anyone but myself.

I'm sick of living like this.
I'm becoming a disappointment, and thats not what I want to be at all.
I want my parents to have something to brag about.
Not complain about.
I don't want to be the one who causes all of their headaches.

I need someone there for me too.
Not a friend, I have those.
I need a boy.
They make me happy.
I need to find myself a good ( Read more... )