Still walking around town at midnight, knowing that I have no place in the world to spend the night indoors. To make matters worse it's winter, and the temperature is too low to stop walking. I can take short naps, but when my feet go past numb-got to start walking ( Read more... )

My mind is slowly emerging from a fog; binge nights of crack... speeding along on all cyclinders--pushed body to the max and ride, searching for a purpose to the night. Stop at a house--random names, faces... TV commercials, beat of rap-- needle pushed into arm, the blood flowing, curving and spinning into the light blue hue liquid. Press down, the ( Read more... )

Charlie was a rebel (always had been and always would be); he went against the grain of the rules and regulations set forth by society; he gave morality the cold shoulder-broke the law without rhyme or reason; worst of all, his actions flew in the face of that most Draconian tyrant-his mother. No matter how hard his mother tried to whitewash her ( Read more... )

I am unwinding; I am progressively becoming completely relaxed. I’m breathing in deeply and exhaling slowly. Nothing worries me; Angela, a good friend of mine, is talking a lot about her problems while I write this, and although I feel for her I do let her problems infect me with stress and worry (because I need to maintain my peace and calm state ( Read more... )

I went to get some teeth whitening material at Wal-mart (I ended up spending 50$ for a wide range of quality teeth whitening product,) and there was this really cute girl at the cashier station who rang me up. Next time I go in, I am going to ask for her number and see if she wants to hang out sometime (maybe have a glass of wine together?) I am ( Read more... )

Once a day-if not more-I find an excuse to go to Wal-mart, that most beautiful store. I just can’t help myself, and although it’s not a habit I deplore, I find myself going more and more often, more than ever before. Wal-mart is my last remaining solace, a reprieve from the weight of the world that I can’t bear anymore; for a few moments, the ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning, slightly disoriented, brewed a cup of green tea and then went to the gym to exercise. After that, I went to the chow hall and ordered a double scrambled with cheese and brought the eggs back to my room; I ate the scrambled eggs, and a bowl of high-fiber, low-carb, whole grain cereal with milk and I infused another glass of ( Read more... )

I’m not trying to say I am morose or anything, but every now and again, like a hibernating animal, I emerge-torpidly-from my room; I squint against the sun as the brightness of day burns my eyes, and stumbling through the parking lot, I find my car. My eyes adjust. It’s not like I love sitting in my car for hours on end, but more often than not, I’ ( Read more... )

You know, sometimes I get so happy that I can’t even stand it. I lay down on my yoga mat-to add a bit of cushion, so as the floor isn’t so uncomfortable-and listen to Groove Salad (an eclectic mix of laid back tracks that never cease to stream from the internet.) And I stare at the ceiling, or close my eyes-meditate; and sometimes ruminate on what ( Read more... )

As soon as I stand up out of my car, and take a few steps into the lush green grass, the tension instantaneously releases from my neck, runs down my body, and drips onto ground. After I take off my shoes and socks-I put each sock inside its respective shoe, and tie the shoes together to make them easily portable-and spend some time meandering ( Read more... )