There is a missing piece between, "You are responsible for your own happiness" and being happy. Deciding to be happy just doesn't cut it, and fuck you to everyone who says it's that simple. It's not. Beliefs are hard to change ( Read more... )

So here's two things for the day. The first is a freakish website designed to recruit US military into missionary work. The ideal program has a soldier move directly from retirement from active duty military to their missionary college. (as far as I can tell it is not a spoof).

The second is a link from Phrangyula that I wanted to talk about a ( Read more... )

...but here I go again ( Read more... )

I did some small thinking today on energy types. I am not talking hoo-doo voo-doo stuff, but rather when different situations make you feel different kinds of excited (based, I'm sure, off the ratio of the different kinds of excitement hormones floating around in you at the time). I started thinking about this b/c I wasted a good deal of time ( Read more... )

This person is doing the same thing I am, except that she's doing it exactly how I am not (and it seems that she has an established program to follow, whereas I am researching and creating one from scratch--lack of a conditioning coach will force you to do that--and just doing plain old unstructured, 'make you sweat' workouts until I get the actual ( Read more... )

I guess I'm having some feelings about this. Mainly that I feel insulted by the book and how it keeps saying "many of us". Us who? I don't have these problems. I don't have your or our fucking problems. I have my problems. My very specific problems in one area that are not problems in other areas. I feel like a group identity around this is ( Read more... )

I have this idea that radical lesbian feminism is essentially about gender essentialism, but I have problems with trying to write about it. I understand it to be a sort of bitter, hopeless worldview, and every interaction I have with its members just reinforces that notion. *sigh*

On the days when I felt awake at work, I would think some pretty cool things. Most of them were lost in my exhausted mindfog, but some stuck around. This is related to a conversation elliotpp and I had a little while ago about moralizing food and eating ( Read more... )

License plate: MOMN8R ( Read more... )

The therapist says I have object-mirror problems. That is, he does object-relations therapy and according to his framework, I didn't have proper mirroring in my childhood. Mirroring is basically when a person that you trust tells you that you're okay in an unqualified way. It's when someone is your personal cheerleader. He says I didn't get ( Read more... )