oh yeah,
I guess I'm having some feelings about this. Mainly that I feel insulted by the book and how it keeps saying "many of us". Us who? I don't have these problems. I don't have your or our fucking problems. I have my problems. My very specific problems in one area that are not problems in other areas. I feel like a group identity around this is somehow saying that it affects every portion of my life, when it doesn't. Or that it's saying these things that were before merely wierd, are now some sort of problem. They're not! I don't have those fucking problems. Don't tell me they're problems! It's the way I think, not a problem. A problem, to me, is something you fix. Lord knows I have enough things to fix. Maybe the problem here is my resentment that things I don't think of as needing fixing are being framed as though they do, or as though they need some sort of special consideration of acknowledgement. I don't like it when other people tell me what my problems are. I know what they are, and I know what they aren't.
Also, I refuse to believe that a lot of this books' advice is specific to ADD people. That is, I cannot possibly believe that only ADD can cause a person to act like X or to feel like Y.
I don't know. I find it hard to 'accept' the diagnosis when the diagnosis says that all these things I never thought were problems actually are. It makes me very defensive and it's like, am I in denial??? Oh noes! The shrink said that it was probably a good thing that I was never diagnosed b/c I didn't have to deal with the stigma crap of it growing up. And I also kinda feel like the book tries to be so comprehensive that it falls into the trap I really hate of, "I have this thing and all my problems can now be related to my thing." The main reason I don't read the thyroid comm anymore is b/c it's so fucking depressing. Like, I know it controls your metabolism, right, and if your metabolism's off you're going to feel all-around shitty, but the posters in there spend a hell of a lot of time micro-analyzing every teensy bit of their lives. The last thing I want to find myself doing is second-guessing my behavior--Is that ME, or is it my condition? I mean, come on. I have better things to do.
Maybe I'm not handling this as well as I thought.
Also, I refuse to believe that a lot of this books' advice is specific to ADD people. That is, I cannot possibly believe that only ADD can cause a person to act like X or to feel like Y.
I don't know. I find it hard to 'accept' the diagnosis when the diagnosis says that all these things I never thought were problems actually are. It makes me very defensive and it's like, am I in denial??? Oh noes! The shrink said that it was probably a good thing that I was never diagnosed b/c I didn't have to deal with the stigma crap of it growing up. And I also kinda feel like the book tries to be so comprehensive that it falls into the trap I really hate of, "I have this thing and all my problems can now be related to my thing." The main reason I don't read the thyroid comm anymore is b/c it's so fucking depressing. Like, I know it controls your metabolism, right, and if your metabolism's off you're going to feel all-around shitty, but the posters in there spend a hell of a lot of time micro-analyzing every teensy bit of their lives. The last thing I want to find myself doing is second-guessing my behavior--Is that ME, or is it my condition? I mean, come on. I have better things to do.
Maybe I'm not handling this as well as I thought.