So as i was driving home from vacation, up north, it hit me as i looked out the window and saw cars full of college stuff that i am not going. As all my of friends are excited about moving into their college dorms and going to college i am stuck her in the good ol AP for at least another year. It is kind of making me really depressed that i have ( Read more... )

So I still dont know really what I am doing with my life as of now. One thing is for sure, I am going to go be a nanny on the east coast if it kills me. I already agreed to not starting school in the fall, and the way i look at it is college is going nowhere fast and i always can catch up with it later. Surprisingly since my last update my mom has ( Read more... )

Love is a word that you can’t truly find a definition by using a dictionary, you can only define it by what is in your heart. How can you define something when you don’t even know it is happening? How do you know that you are in love or that you are loved by someone else? The dictionary’s definition of love is a strong or passionate affection for ( Read more... )

how do you get passed the fact that your own mother doesnt support you and tells you that you cant live on your own? How do you get passed the fact that your own mother doesnt want you to do what makes you happy? She is crushing my dreams and my spirit. Dont tell me I cant do it because if I want it that bad I will ( Read more... )

WOW I havent seen my journal in forever, almost 5 months, alot to has went on since the last update ( Read more... )

Senior year almost second semester, i havent had anytime to write in this thing,to bad i didnt, i had some kick ass stories from this years swim team and the cho mobile. I started to apply to college wow that is a bitch. totally stressed out right now with midterms, acts and college apps ontop of college exceptance essays, work and fucking school. ( Read more... )

So i guess the curse continues, two more girls from our school died this weekend in a car accident a drunk driver hit them on their way back to college. R.I.P katie and courtney ( Read more... )

So I really havent updated this thing in a while maybe put in a few swimming quotes but nothing about my life. I cant lie my life hasnt been boring in any means. Just yesterday after swimming my dad got this bill for a huge amount of money, come to find out somebody i dont know who stole my identity on line used my email addy and bought a bunch of ( Read more... )

"Swimming is lonely. The swimmers mightiest challenge is to tune out. It's the only sport where you can never know exactly how well you're doing until it's to late to do anything about it. There is no sound of footsteps or trash talk or heavy breathing in the next lane, just the muffled roar from fans who may be cheering for winners or screaming ( Read more... )

so i havent updated this thing in forever so i thought that today while i have nothing left to do i would.

So my life hasnt be too back since we came home from vacation. Swimming started on monday and lets just say it was a bitch at first but now it is just fun in a way, the three day hump is a bitch. So the freshmen arent that good, who am i ( Read more... )