so i would like everyone to know that guess what...
IM A BIG GIRL. 
guess what that means...it means i can make my own decissions. i dont need anyone telling me how to handle my life. if i screw up then let me. if i make the wrong choice then...oooppps my bad. but PLEASE stop lecturing me. i can figure things out for myself.

the only reason this ( Read more... )

TO MUCH FUCKING DRAMA...

EVERYONE NEEDS TO GET OVER THEMSELVES....

ITS OUR SENIOR YEAR LETS JUST LIVE IN THE NOW. OK

i know i need to get over things and im working on it right now.
self discovery has taught me alot. our choices make who we are. are you makin the right ones?

i love jeska no matter how pissed she may get at me for talkin to a certain ( Read more... )

so right now as i type my dad is on the phone with scott...my secret 21 year old boyfrend. who i like ALOT!

i have no clue whats bein said...they've been on the phone for almost 45 minutes...kinda weird...dads drinking so that doesnt help

went to the football game (that got canciled tonght) then to a hotel with people it was REALLY weird. paul n ( Read more... )

so my road test is in like 40 minutes...im kinda scared...

risa came over last night n we cried to the Ron Clark movie...it was sad

worked with my buddy zac yesterday...yay hes sooo funny.

havnt really been talkin to certain people n i like it. life seems more understanding n not so confusing. i like the way things r. boys are dumb anyway

i just want ( Read more... )

LAST NIGHT WAS FUUUUUNNNN!

went to lacys wedding it was fun as hell. steven n me talked for a like an hour out in sams car. i missed that kid. hes sooo hot lol. sam said the same thing. him n me are good now. i guess were gonna party or something sometime.

anywayyyys. danced with shaners alot. i hope he will dance with me at some of the school ( Read more... )

so right now there are two people i hate more than anything. steven shield and chris delia. they still love to talk shit about stuff that happened forever ago. they find it fun and ammusing to talk about me. why i dont know. but i do know im fed up with it. they talk soo much shit they dont realize what can be said about them. they wanna play ( Read more... )

i dont believe that anything just happens, it happens for a reason. so yeah.

but yeah im excited. i miss old friends and old times.

remember when we were all freshman and the only thing we cared about was the rock show coming up, or sophmore year when what really loved were dances after football games.

i miss old times. its hard to believe that this ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think that people stay friends just because it's familiar... even if they don't always treat each other the way they should and their friendship has changed a lot...some ways for the worse. Or maybe that's how friendships should really be... workworkwork....(thank u nikki that makes alot of sense)

that right there i think is how ive felt ( Read more... )

wondering if now is the time, the time to take some friends advice...

schools gonna start soon and i must come to a decision? i must realize the reality of it all. and that hurts to do so.

dont know what will happen or what could have happened...i go back and forth and it kills me to do so.

the wedding is on the 5th...i guess we'll see after that...

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SOOOOOOOOO today has been interesting even though all ive done is sit at home.

jeska is mad at me...sort of i guess...im hearing alot of stories...kinda stupid stories actually...dont know what to think

so jeska i understand what ur saying and i want to say sorry. i shouldnt talk to my mom about certain things. i wont say anything to her about u ( Read more... )