you said you'll meet us in the middle of the afternoon...

[mattsharp]

what am i doing? i'm a real freak. i go on. Lord, please help me, please fix me. i'm so tired of being me. i'm so tired of being such a poor representation of You and all You stand for. i am so full of myself and i am such an idiot. man, this is so tough. i can't explain it, but i am sad. God has blessed me with so much, and i screw it all up, and

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[burnthistown]

Elijah, you're a wonderful person, I promise. I don't know how many times a day it'll take me saying that to you before you finally realize how great you are and how much you've helped me, but I'll continue to say it, even if you choose not to believe me. God is working in you, I can see it. Please don't be sad :( See you in Amarillo in sixteen hours, okay? God bless you.

[shea_shea]

elijah
why are always so down on yourself?
i dunno...
maybe thats just the only time u write in your journal
but its kinda sad :(
you shouldnt think so low of yourself

how can you show your love for others without first loving yourself
you're a super person
and you really should love yourself
as hard of a task as it may be

-shea-

[mattsharp]

it's easy, i promise. when people say "you must first love yourself before you can love others." that's just a saying to get people to love themselves. it doesn't say that in the bible. the bible says i ought not to think higher of myself than i am, and i try not to.

[shea_shea]

well it does say "love your neighbor as yourself "
and im pretty sure that means that you have to love yourself

im sorry
-shea-

[mattsharp]

whatever. i never said i didn't love myself anyway. and i'm being honest either way. it doesn't matter.