Funny.  It took this long for me to actually post from my apartment.  A lot happened since I could post from my own apartment.  Man, what a trip this life has been since the days of Purchase.  Things are moving along in the right direction.  My feet feel firmly placed on the ground as I march off unto the unknown.  The future seems like a ( Read more... )

There has been one thing missing from my life for the past six years: a training partner.

I think I may have just been reunited with my twin.

Trevor lives about a mile from me.

He just got back into running.

Am I thinking about making a comeback?

Fuck yes. 

 If I don't get into UNO, my game plan is remain working for another month, then find a cabin or some isolated place back home and spend a month writing a book and being my own version of Quenton Cassidy.  Running no longer matters to me.  It is me.  It's all I have left that reminds me of who I am.

Time to get busy living
Or get busy dying.

There is a girl (there is always a girl) that has won my thoughts and feelings.  Slightly different feelings, though, because when I met her boyfriend, in the back of my mind I thought, why am I not more appealing?  I want her to have someone awesome, she deserves it.  She has been through a lot in the past year.  I used to think I was attracted to ( Read more... )

 Am I really as cold as I've heard?  I'm reassessing my previous relationships and realizing what I did right.  And what I've done wrong.  I feel like I'm embracing my dark side more and more every day and need to let go of my doubt.

Bearing in mind that I haven't seen Kristin in at least six months, it seems odd that I'm writing on her Mac.  Or not.  Throughout the past few months, I've been walking and groping the world aimlessly for some sort of hope.  A hope in humanity; a hope in life.  Well, she's currently eating some pizza, sitting on my couch, and missing her boyfriend ( Read more... )

Hey Gin,
I'm single again.  I miss  you.  You still have my heart.  Always will.

 It came to my attention Monday that I was in desperate need of some help.  I finally broke down and got some.  I just worry it was too late.

 Her myspace mood says she's feeling "sneaky".  She's grown fairly distant over the past week or so.  Constantly, I feel criticized.  Every day, I grow more suspicious that I'm missing something terribly important.  I wonder sometimes why I'm holding on, clutching to this.  I'm miserable, feeling hopeless.  I'm trying to change that.  I'm trying to ( Read more... )

I've finally revealed within myself that I am at ease with Nicole.  And falling is still as uncomfortable as ever.  This new apartment, eh.  Clarity should come soon.  Right ( Read more... )