AHHHH...

Fuck people
Fuck school
Fuck Drs
Fuck everyone
Fuck the world

I really hate people right now and just dont want to deal with anything...

I feel like every time I start to let myself relax and get comfortable, things just go to hell again.  Like in the past week or two I have really started to question why I don't listen to some close people and ignore others.  I am just so frustrated with things right now.  I feel like people are lying to me again and I am at my breaking point with ( Read more... )

Feel kinda blah... thrown up 3 times already, cried a lot, and just cant sleep... I just wish I was at home and could hide from everything... I just don't want to do this anymore

I dont know yet again... I have gone from my excited little things are better life to miserable again and I am not even at school yet.  This just sucks again.  I went from having an amazing 4 days with my girlfriend staying with me at my house, she came over and we spent New Years together.  I was as happy as can be, then yesterday when she left I ( Read more... )

So I have been hiding for a while now.  I guess I have just been so frustrated about everything going on in life right now that I didnt know what to do and as usual I just ran and tried to hide.  Well try being the key thing... I think my girl friend really wouldnt let me hide much, well at least not around her.  She knew everything that was going ( Read more... )

I CANT TAKE PEOPLE WHO LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so frustrated with lies and things that i dont know what to do anymore...

How am I supposed to know what you think or feel if you lie to me...  How the hell am I supposed to trust you... Why cant you tell me the truth, I wont be mad at you...  Why dont you trust me... How do I know how you really feel ( Read more... )

Its been a long time since I felt this way last, but I am there again.  I am so frustrated with everything that maybe it is just time for me to give up on everything, as much as I hate to say it.  Maybe everyone else around me would be happier that way.  I wouldnt be a screw up in my moms eyes anymore, my co RAs wouldnt have to deal with me being ( Read more... )

computer is back but life is still blah...

in one aspect i feel like i am from this outside place... i hate people who are ignorant ass holes and not accepting...

on the other hand i feel like i am 2 years old and i am getting tired...

:'(

So my computer crashed again... I so am starting to hate computers... but I am glad that I got it back yesterday, I def missed it.  It feels good to be able to go on my computer and do things when I need to without having to depend on others...

I SOO cant wait to see my baby tomorrow for the first time in 2+ weeks.  I miss her so much and she is moving back tomorrow!!!  YAY!!! Life will be good again haha