So, Jared Finally Sent Me A Message After 5 Days & Other News

[masterde]

He told me that Robb was treating him better and Robb had made an appointment with a doctor to get his meds adjusted

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[uniquepov]

*hugs*

[masterde]

I told Jared, the last time I stopped talking to him, that I wouldn't be second place. He did it again. I deserve to be treated better than Jared has treated me.

[uniquepov]

You do deserve better. If you find yourself constantly supporting someone else, who is never there to support you and who disappears when things begin looking up, it's time to stop giving them your energy. You can love them, but no longer feed into their drama.

As far as the other... I don't know the whole story, of course, but... in my experience, if you keep winding up interacting with a certain someone, that's the Universe's way of saying, it's not time for you to part, yet.

I'm around if you want to chat. *hugs more*

[masterde]

Jared only seemed to appear when things were going wrong or he was unhappy or he needed to be calmed down or needed someone to make him feel better so he'd stop crying. And to honest, I'm not sure if he'd be alive if it weren't for me being there for him for 8 years. But he's 23 years old now. It's about time he learned to help himself. Let him pay for his own consequences. If one of his other friends wants to be all father figure for him, then that's fine. But it ain'ts (just put an "s" on ain't) to be me.

As far as the other goes; It's a long an complicated tale. He's a great guy and would totally be husband material except for one piece of 'life-baggage' that I don't want to be involved with. (Not AIDS, but rather a group he's a part of.) I just don't see a future with him. As great as he is... something could go wrong and I might never see him again or I might have to disappear and leave everyone and everything behind. I don't want that hanging over my head.