F!Shep/Kaidan - Post Priority: Thessia
anonymous
March 25 2012, 03:24:16 UTC
Good ol' hurt and comfort fic request. Watching Thessia fall and having Cerberus fuck you over must really, really suck after scoring some big wins (curing genophage, krogan/turian alliance, geth/quarian peace, etc.). So let's see Shepard deal with the aftermath, and Kaidan providing support.
The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (1/7)
anonymous
April 1 2012, 22:48:09 UTC
Hope this is even remotely what you were looking for, anon. Cerberus didn't quite make an appearance, but Thessia did! Then lots of character study-y porn. I tried to catch any typos/terrible parts/stupid errors but I think I got revision blindness by the end, so apologies if I missed something
Enjoy!
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Too many lights, too much noise.
Purgatory isn’t Kaidan’s kind of place, not by a long shot. The lights are muted and purple but he still feels like he’s being hit by flashbangs left and right, the music is…well, it’s appropriate for the locale, he guesses, but not his thing, and if he gets hit by one more person trying to push past him to the bar he’s seriously concerned about his ability to hold back his biotics.
No, it’s not his kind of place. But it’s Shepard’s kind of place, at least when she’s like this - angry; in mourning; upset. Because when Shepard is upset doesn’t cry, she drinks and dances and fucks and forgets, and he figures if she’s going to do it with someone, it’d better be him
( ... )
The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (2/7)
anonymous
April 1 2012, 22:49:13 UTC
The middle of the dance floor is where she yanks him to, surrounded by gyrating members of every council race and then some. The music is coming from all around them, though it seems to be originating from an alcove in the corner where an asari in neon face paint is twisting and pushing on various knobs, dials and holo screens, a set of delicate omni-style headphones resting on her ears
( ... )
The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (3/7)
anonymous
April 1 2012, 22:50:14 UTC
They’re barely inside her cabin before she shoves him against the wall, and the crash of his body against hers feels like being amped.
“The bed, now,” Shepard groans against his lips, her hands scrambling for purchase against the buckle of his pants. Behind them one of her fish crashes over and over into the glass, the tiny tap-tap-tap like the ticking of a clock.
They’ve gone through dancing and drinking, and now it seems they’ve reached stage three.
And it’s not that he doesn’t want to, because of course he wants to, it’s just, “Shepard, you’re…” he looks down at her, covered in sweat and smelling of booze. He can’t help but let out a small laugh. “You’re wrecked. Are you sure you’re alright
( ... )
The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (4/7)
anonymous
April 1 2012, 22:51:48 UTC
Kaidan drops to her level, one knee on either side of her hips, before leaning down and grabbing the sides of her face with both hands as he lands a bruising kiss on her. Her hips press up eagerly against him as she groans into his mouth, her hands grabbing and twisting into his hair like he’s everything she needs, and he wants to be that so desperately that he can’t help but feel his heart begin to race and pound in his chest
( ... )
The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (5/7)
anonymous
April 1 2012, 22:53:01 UTC
All of Kaidan’s life he’s been a technical person. He likes fidgeting with things, figuring out what makes them tick. Likes the feeling of taking something in his hands and working out all of its kinks until it’s running smooth and purring like a kitten, and he likes to think he’d good at what he does
( ... )
The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (6/8 oops can't count)
anonymous
April 1 2012, 22:54:37 UTC
“Kaidan,” she groans into his neck, her arms tightening around his back and her fingernails digging into his shoulder blades. When he doesn’t slow his pace, she pulls back and looks him in the eyes. He knows that look. “Kaidan, I need
( ... )
Re: The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (7/7 goddamn it I'm a moron)
anonymous
April 1 2012, 22:57:43 UTC
The bed, once they finally make their way over to it, is a welcome softness. They settle in and she curls up against him, slinging his arm over her and nestling her chin in the crook of his neck. It’s a lazy sort of comfortable, the kind where you might accidentally start thinking that maybe the next day you can sleep in, that maybe you can just stay in bed and fuck all day and not have to worry about reapers and husks and the problems of the galaxy.
Shepard doesn’t feel that way, though. He can feel it in the way her muscles are still tense and how she keeps sighing into his neck, twisting and trying to get comfortable but not able to. She’s drank and danced and fucked, but she can’t forget. Can’t deal with the fact that she can shoot a brute point blank in the face but can’t even look one of her best friends in the eyes.
Maybe, in the end, she is a little bit afraid of herself. Kaidan might be scared of his what own mind can do, but Shepard? She’s terrified of the fact that she’s just as fallible and scared as the rest of them
( ... )
Re: The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (7/7 goddamn it I'm a moron)
anonymous
April 2 2012, 02:12:05 UTC
Thank you! It's the first time I've really written a longer piece from his POV, so I was a little nervous I'd get it wrong. Glad it was at least enjoyable!
Re: The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (7/7 goddamn it I'm a moron)
anonymous
April 2 2012, 15:57:34 UTC
Ah, this is great! I don't usually even like f!Shenko and kind of clicked this on a whim, but this is certainly one of those few exceptions and it's definitely going in my saved links, absolutely stunning. Just shsfdghdg. Loved the thought processes, your Shepard and the way you've got Kaidan down. Have you written anything else I might be able to peruse?
(This anon always messes numbering up too, thus feels your panic and pain about possibly missing some. ffffwordcounts)
Re: The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (7/7 goddamn it I'm a moron)
anonymous
April 2 2012, 17:45:05 UTC
Oh anon, you are so sweet! I'm so flattered that you read my little story (and saved it!) even if you aren't too big on the pairing. I'm glad you felt Kaidan was written well (one of my biggest writing fears is OOC-ness) and that my Shepard felt distinct/like a character and not just a placeholder to have things bounced off of, it's something that can be tricky for me.
Aw, I'm sorry to disappoint but I don't have anything else on the kmeme I've done...yet :) I've written a couple of small drabbles in ME and some stuff for Dragon Age, though. Not sure how de-anoning works here, but in a few days when I get unlazy I'll be posting this to my LJ/my AO3 so if you search for it there I'm sure you'll find me if you want to take a look!
Re: The Cleansing Fire - FShep/Kaidan - (7/7 goddamn it I'm a moron)
anonymous
April 2 2012, 19:28:05 UTC
I feel you, writing solo for an anon meme like this is always hard because you don't know if you're nailing the characters or just flailing about! But dw, pretty sure you nailed them. C:
Welp, don't be shy about maybe linking it in the comments here when you stick it up, perhaps? Hope y'all write some more for us here in the future, either way.
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Enjoy!
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Too many lights, too much noise.
Purgatory isn’t Kaidan’s kind of place, not by a long shot. The lights are muted and purple but he still feels like he’s being hit by flashbangs left and right, the music is…well, it’s appropriate for the locale, he guesses, but not his thing, and if he gets hit by one more person trying to push past him to the bar he’s seriously concerned about his ability to hold back his biotics.
No, it’s not his kind of place. But it’s Shepard’s kind of place, at least when she’s like this - angry; in mourning; upset. Because when Shepard is upset doesn’t cry, she drinks and dances and fucks and forgets, and he figures if she’s going to do it with someone, it’d better be him ( ... )
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“The bed, now,” Shepard groans against his lips, her hands scrambling for purchase against the buckle of his pants. Behind them one of her fish crashes over and over into the glass, the tiny tap-tap-tap like the ticking of a clock.
They’ve gone through dancing and drinking, and now it seems they’ve reached stage three.
And it’s not that he doesn’t want to, because of course he wants to, it’s just, “Shepard, you’re…” he looks down at her, covered in sweat and smelling of booze. He can’t help but let out a small laugh. “You’re wrecked. Are you sure you’re alright ( ... )
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Shepard doesn’t feel that way, though. He can feel it in the way her muscles are still tense and how she keeps sighing into his neck, twisting and trying to get comfortable but not able to. She’s drank and danced and fucked, but she can’t forget. Can’t deal with the fact that she can shoot a brute point blank in the face but can’t even look one of her best friends in the eyes.
Maybe, in the end, she is a little bit afraid of herself. Kaidan might be scared of his what own mind can do, but Shepard? She’s terrified of the fact that she’s just as fallible and scared as the rest of them ( ... )
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(This anon always messes numbering up too, thus feels your panic and pain about possibly missing some. ffffwordcounts)
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Aw, I'm sorry to disappoint but I don't have anything else on the kmeme I've done...yet :) I've written a couple of small drabbles in ME and some stuff for Dragon Age, though. Not sure how de-anoning works here, but in a few days when I get unlazy I'll be posting this to my LJ/my AO3 so if you search for it there I'm sure you'll find me if you want to take a look!
Thanks again anon for the great comment <3
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Welp, don't be shy about maybe linking it in the comments here when you stick it up, perhaps? Hope y'all write some more for us here in the future, either way.
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